Very very tired of how the older I get the more I realize I really should've offed myself in high school. Or at least a few years ago in England

Over a year later and I'm still having nightmares about how horrible my ex made me feel

Desperately miss when I had no idea what disassociating felt like

I feel like there is literally not a single person in the world who has ever really liked me, being alive is so fun!

Apparently the year I left the US, over 500 cases of human trafficking had been reported in my state, which included reports in both the city I live in and the city I grew up in. And my ex really tried to tell me I was crazy for being worried about that

Like I CANNOT believe my ex made me feel so bad about myself I didn't even like being naked anymore

Jfc how I've missed feeling beautiful and hot and sexy, even if I'm bloated or breaking out all over

I fear the level to which my ex fucked with my ability to be vulnerable is unimaginable

Also love how my ex tried to tell me I was lying when I told him he didn't make me feel cared for even tho feeling uncared for still makes me cry a year later