хочется убиться

on the other hand however, i'm not the one to complain because i don't care about other people, too. i won't ask you how're feeling, unless you tell me yourself. and even if i do ask, you should know that there's no genuine care.... because i don't care about you. i mean, i do. but i'm so consumed in my own ploblems that i don't have any slitest bit of emotional reaction for yours. it's like i've waisted my energy on people or every sort of stress that came before you, that now i don't even care anymore, i don't have energy to do that properly. so i do care, but i don't have proper emotional reaction to express that and support you like i should. and i think this is the reason why they always forget about me. it’s too much for them, too. it's the reason for many people... at least i hope that this is it... because if it's not... we're living in the sad world.