ghost of your lies

What really sucks about all this is I feel that now I’m in too deep. If I would’ve had the strength to kick him out of the apartment in 2020 it would have been so much easier. Now we’re legally bound and have a child. I’m in HIS house, unemployed because he wants me to be a SAHM. I barely have any connection outside from him so I’m literally hopeless.

I’ve been subtly withdrawing from him. I stopped wearing the ring. I don’t try to be next to him. I don’t say I love you too.

Reflecting on things is funny because my own insecurities always made me feel like I wasn’t good enough but now I see he is the one that is not good enough for me.

I’m regretting the choices I’ve made that have led me to this point in my life. I wish I could do things differently.

It’s sickening yet also hilarious that she would actually be jealous of me

A lot has changed but I’m still scared that I won’t be good enough for you

Tfw a crazy customer tries to get you fired by making false accusations to the store manager

Sick and tired of feeling like I’m not good enough.

Kinda want to quit my job and end my relationship. I’m sick of my life. Sometimes I think it would be better if I wasn’t here.

Literally want to kms the store manager screamed at me today because I asked her a question for a customer and she didn’t offer any solution l m a o. I was seriously this 🤏🏻 fucking close to quitting on the spot but my coworkers were able to handle the situation while I hid in the stock room to cry

Being an adult is such bullshit I have to cook and clean and organize and do all the grocery shopping and work full time and still be poor I would honestly rather be dead

I’m literally scheduled 11 hour shifts and expected to be fine with that and still be able to do everything else like I literally don’t even have time to eat and sleep as it is with regular 9 hour shifts how the fuck am I going to handle this I’m going to kms

Working in retail really is hell because you will have customers who literally treat you like shit the entire time you’re helping them like literally yelling at you and then turn around and thank you for being helpful when they’re on their way out

I am literally this 🤏🏻 fucking close to losing my shit

Tfw you only get paid $200 and then it costs $70 to fill your car up with gas :’)

Thinking of telling my manager that I can’t work more than 4 days a week

I really miss my coworker who recently retired and every time I think about her I get really emotional. Because I know exactly what she would tell me in these situations but I feel like I can’t do it. She would want me to be strong and stand up for myself but I literally can’t I’m so weak I break down in an instant.