It's so hard to agree on whether I'm truly asexual or not, because I can be romantically attracted to any person regardless of their gender identity but when it comes to sexual intimacy it's something I don't need specifically from men????? Cis or not, I don't really desire REAL LIFE[this goes for both trans and Cis] men in a sense of laying down with one, I barely even look at them like that romantically, yet I can still develop deep emotional connections with them. I feel like it would take more time to get intimate with a man more than a woman because a woman already knows what I have, we would already be familiar with eachother?? Most of my crushes as a kid were women. And yet, despite all this, I'm still scared of intimacy anyway. I'll always chicken out, it's just something I can't bring myself to do, its not the pleasure that scares me, it's the thought of another person seeing me in full....eugh....Hella weird.... I am still very young and I have alot of time to decide what i like, it just kind of bugs me out sometimes on the fact that I can't really find romance relevant in a whole. I don't feel bad for not being able to like others romantically or sexually, I'm just scared I'm missing out on whatever teens my age are usually doingš in conclusion. I'm a huge mess.