hiatus is the new black

you were a brilliance i never knew how to fully look at; a boy, a man, a singer, a poet, a lyricist, an artist. yet there were unseen jagged cracks in your soul you covered up inelegantly with laughter and soft smiles and you were always always so beautiful. did you know? you were incandescent. you were a miracle. and inside you curdled a soul-eating darkness we couldn’t see. is it prettier where you are now? do the stars shine as bright as you? you were a star- no you were a supernova, you were inimitable. i love you i love you i love you. i wish i could take all the love we still have beating here for you and pull you back, give you back breath, give you back life. but you’ve escaped the suffocation this world gave you now. has it stopped hurting? thank you for your voice, your art, thank you for sharing little bits of your soul. goodbye my favourite tiny human, my favourite soloist, my favourite voice. goodbye kim jonghyun, gentle human, soft heart, singer, songwriter, artist, idol, friend, brother, son. inspiration.

No, actually I don’t like the thought that a piece of us died with him. Let’s believe that a piece of him lives on with us instead.