after we reach JE, i instantly remember so many things about you, your home, your place where you grow up in your teens life, the place where you hangout, the place where i will always be travelling and forever be, the place where we holds our hand and walk towards meeting your family, the place where i always have you by my side travelling together and joking with each other about others and our self <3, the never ending of your hugs and touches, the never ending of your eyes looking at me even if iām not looking at you my dear(and i know it:P), i canāt help to feel a little sorrow inside me, but i push it back and remembered how happy i was being with you, baby, please wait for me, donāt go away, other than saying this, i notice there is nothing i can do anymore. i went to redhill and were standing i remembered how you hug me when i was standing and you were behind me hugging me making sure i donāt fall even a slightest jerk you would hold me tighter, you could not believe how blissful i felt at that period of time, you just make me melt into your hugs. but i came back to reality that you weren't here... and when i reached, i told G that we walking? she said there is direct bus, i was shocked because that time we walked and spent our time complaining how hot it was (okok, maybe just me complaining at first tho,) and when you went to the reporting area u took my photos and i could not stop thinking how unglam it was! and then you have to go in for reporting already, i was at the canteen waiting for you and when you went in, you came out after awhile and i thought youāre done, yet you just said you scared i was bored so you came out to accompany me, now i think back, at that point of time, i bet i feel for you deep at that sentence you said to me, you totally melt my heart! but you sat down awhile and then you have to go back in, i swear some part, a little part, of my heart breaks watching you leave. (HONESTLY, at that period of time, i was really in love with you already.) but soon, you were done and we walked away from that hole of death threatening area, and we took the path back, you wanted to hold my bag, i was reluctant to let you handle it, as you know you SWING things pretty AWESOMELY, i wouldnāt want my bag to be back in 2 pieces tho :P but iām happy that we had these memories to accompany me while youāre inside hostel now, even though you always say youāre fine inside, i know sometime you aren't. you just donāt wish me to get worried and start being a CRY-BABY outside and you canāt be beside me to soothe me down, thank you sweetie for thinking so much much on my behalf my dear <3 you have always been so sweet, you did so much for me and all, i really wanna just kiss you and never let you go, because you are mine and with that, you stay as mine too <3. so after all this, G went home to change and we went to causeway point and have a walk, suddenly marcus called me, and kept asking me where am G and me, so i told him our location, but i think G knew it, so she doesn't feel surprised, but for me, i thought of you, that time when you surprised me at westmall, that day when i was so worried of your sisters so i didnāt really go check the reason why the whatsapp in your phone could sent thru, so i just keep a note to find it out after helping your sister. but when i reach, she told me the situation and then i kept quiet awhile when she got a call and then she asked me to go somewhere, so i followed blindly, i really didnāt hope much and you didnāt text me, do you know sad/ depressed i was feeling? i need you out to show you how much i want you, how much i need you(i know it sound super wrong:P) but youāre really the medicine for me to calm my nerves and relax from all my stress. youāre the key to my happiness, my dear <3. when the door open up, i saw you standing infront of me, inside me, i donāt know to smile or cry, but i think you wouldnāt want to see me tear, so i smile instead but my lips could not move, but i canāt stop starring at you when you smile so brightly when you saw me and called me bby... you look so...perfect!...then i knew, i wanted you. The moment i regain my senses, i realized i was in your embrace, i just felt so secure, your arms around me, i thought i wouldnāt feel it for quite awhile since you didnāt text me at all, but it felt so real and just around me, i looked up and saw you smiling down at me, you know i couldnāt resist to your smile and i really want to kiss you, but i decided to let our feelings linger for awhile till the HOT kisses comes ><! but i donāt know if you felt the same way as me too.. i just felt so ticklish in my stomach and the areas that your hand and fingers trace and touches. the moment we were in the lift, i wasnāt angry with you, but i show you like i am to cover up how bloody happy and shock i am, i didnāt want to show you because we were in the public haha! but iām really delighted to see you beside me after sooo damn long time. itās the happiness that iām feeling inside, itās so beautiful that makes me want to cry, cry the tears of joy <3. i need you so much that you can imagine, to you, you might think i am your pillar of support and strength, but youāre my pillar of life and heart. w/o you, i will collapse into someone i would not want to know. We went to the arcade and i proudly walk inside and saw alot of young and skinny girls but you seen them but you divert your sight back to me and watch for my reaction, i know my feelings are the priorities in your heart, i felt at ease when i felt all this, to me, all this girls doesnāt matters anymore, itās just the world, you and me<3. and you never leave my side and your hand never leave my hand when you are free,(except for the dance game okay) i know all these small gesture you made for me, i appreciates it and i acknowledge it, donāt think idk :P i knew, just didnāt want to let you know i knew :P. when we go for the movies, iām laughing badly because i think we sit the wrong seats! HAHA! but watching movies with you felt so strangely safe and relaxing, some friends or my ex, i have a feeling like they might touch me to disturb me of my show, but for you, even if you touches me or even just beside me, i felt your presence but i just donāt get interrupt by it, i felt so at ease that youāre here with me, knowing iām not alone and i have the guy who make me feel so safe beside me, even if he is not built big, or muscular, or 6 packs and all, i just feel so safe being with you dear, but honestly i donāt remember the show, i just remembered how you look like in the dark with your features protruding out against the light of the show, w/o the hair, i can have a more clearer view of your face, your neck and those hands that hold mine dearly in. everything just felt so perfect at that moment, even the show doesnāt matters to me, looking at you and remembering the time we spent, remembering your face features one by one, is just so much more important for me<3. someone once wrote me a letter saying,āif my heart were a jail, you would rather be sentence for a lifetimeā. but for me, iām gonna say,ā if you were to leave me, i would let you leave on a path where it leads you back to me.ā i love you my dear <3. have a gd night and a sweetest dreams<3 and remember, i always love you <3.
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