Wanderlust

Do you ever get really scared that you won't ever see the world? By the time I have the time to do it I will be drowning in student loans so I won't have the money and by the time I pay off my loans I won't have the time, the irony

Every time I get a phone call or my phone chimes when I get a text a small piece of me still holds on to the chance it might be you

The most judgmental people are often those who will never stray from the crowd

I'm just craving that feeling you get at 2am while talking to someone without any purpose or place to be. Just laying there with no expectation and the silences aren't awkward. In that moment it's as if time has stopped, you smile to yourself and try to lock away that moment into your brain because it was one you'll never forget. I felt infinite.

I'm tired of feeling numb and lonely all the time. And I hate being negative, how ironic. It's weird though I'd rather love and be loved and lose it than just never having anything at all. It's a huge ass world filled with billions of people so I figure there's got to be someone out there feeling the same way as me. So for that person feeling that way too if you see this just know you're not the only one.

Do you ever wonder if you are just meant to be lonely and if there is anyone out there that feels the same immense sadness? I just want someone who gets me and the way I think or at least cares to try and figure it out.