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Primavera 2022

He grinned. “Don’t tell me you’d miss me.” Zoya looked away again. “I suppose the world would be less interesting without you in it. I wouldn’t let myself be drowned in amber for just anyone, you know.” “I’m touched,” he said. And he was. It was the closest thing to a compliment she’d ever given him.

"It was months before the gloss and mystery of newness, which kept me from seeing them with much objectivity, would wear entirely off - but it is here, in my memory, that they cease being totally foreign, and begin to appear, for the first time, in shapes very like their bright old selves. I too appear as something of a stranger in these early memories: watchful and grudging, oddly silent."

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Witch. The word drifted across his mind. We call such women so, because we have no other name.

Sasha looked at his sister. He had never thought of her as girlish, but the last trace of softness was gone. The quick brain, the strong limbs were there: fiercely, almost defiantly present, though concealed beneath her encumbering dress. She was more feminine than she had ever been, and less. Witch. The word drifted across his mind. We call such women so, because we have no other name.

the upperclassmen

Hampton Court Palace - 18/2/19

For you alone I will be weak.

❝ Koschei, Koschei,” she whispered. “What would I have been if I had never seen the birds? I am no one; I am nothing. I am a blank paper on which you and your magic wrote a girl. Just the kind of girl you wanted, all hungry and hurt and needing. A machine for loving you. Nothing in me was not made by you. ❞ - Deathless by Catherynne M. Valente

I suppose at one time in my life I might have had any number of stories, but now there is no other. This is the only story I will ever be able to tell.

Kaz leaned back. “What’s the easiest way to steal a man’s wallet?” “Knife to the throat?” asked Inej. “Gun to the back?” said Jesper. “Poison in his cup?” suggested Nina. “You’re all horrible,” said Matthias.

Favorite Quote: Tyrion Lannister (A Dance with Dragons, Chapter 22, Tyrion VI.)

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years. I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me. I have learned all the tricks you said I must learn. I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man. I have learned to lay my finger aside my nose and disappear. I have learned to watch everything die. I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic now, too.  — Deathless, Cathyrenne M. Valente

but (we can fly with our spirit)

I WILL NEVER LEAVE HIM. IT WILL BE THIS, ALWAYS, FOR AS LONG AS HE WILL LET ME.

—Donna Tartt, The Secret History