So-what-ever Diary

Hormones are strong enough to have your ups and downs mind breaker. And you choose to blame hormones, for your sudden change of moods; you get depressed, angrier, stressed out, hopeless, sadness, all those negative thoughts haunted you all day long in your mind.

You can't scream, you just could scream silently in your own thought that brought you even deeper and deepest thoughts. It's dark here but you choose to do so, because what you felt is valid. You believe when you choose it, you'll be able to rise again even better and able to fight it later on.

I just wish that i'll be happy, be healthy, be kinder, be rich (oh ofkors) 😌👍🏻 anything you want, will be yours eventually. No way you're too confident hahaha lol I'm kidding.

I'm not everyone, thinking i am.

I'm not that cheerfull, i'm not that kind, i'm not that soulfree kind of person, i'm not that everyone thinking of.

I'm so vulnerable at times, such as this time.

I felt lost these days, and its been hard to carry on. I always seeks the answer but i just cant get it right, or i just dont want to know the answer at all. For all things that i had been keeping on my mind since long time ago.

My mind goes blank.

To know the truth.