[WIIIIIP THIS I SA BIG OL WIIIP A WIP WORK IN PROGRESS, MAYBE THIS WILL BE A SHORT STORY OR CHARACTERS IN MY BIG STORY]
"lady" that admires big strong knights but thinks she needs to be in the role of a maiden, she meets a very cool and nice knight and admires him greatly, she admires everything about him. they fall in love and marry. she really does love him, even though she feels like something is off in her life. At the wedding, looking at his face gave her bliss, but thinking about the wedding dress made a pit in her heart, why is that? She ignores it, today is a day of love.
She has a lot of unhapiness that she doesn't understand where it comes from, maybe it's normal to feel this way, everyone must be pushing through these feelings everyday, too. Still, she admires him a lot, he's her hero, she dreams about his adventure, his armor, his face, his body.
She was too weak to go on his adventures with him, but he knew how much she liked them and tried his best, either bringing trinkets to tell his stories, or maybe even bringing her
___ always used to be a tomboy, she had dreamss of being strong, of growing a beard... Well, but dreams are dreams, one has to wake up and give up. She always had that interets in those manly heroes, sure, beautiful lady knights existed, but she loved those big guys. ___ and Floweren really understood eachother, he never met someone that liked knights the way he liked them, people on the outside thought it was strange, what's this fancy lady doing here? But Floweren never discoureged her from participating in anything relating to knights, it was her that was so afraid to step out, to try to be strong and like him, ___ thought she already had her role in life when she fell in love with him, a knight's maiden. Even though she wished she could be a knight, she couldnt think of herself being one.
"I don't like having to look up at you to kiss you, I wish I was as tall as you"
She's been living her life through him, apreciating him was like looking into her ideal self.
___, have you ever thought about how our life would be like if we had a baby?
[___ thinks and reflects on his complicated feelings, he does want to have a kid]
___ thinks to themselves "it'll be so painful, it'll be the worst experience of my life. I might even die, but you make it all worth it!" but cant say it outloud, if only they said it, Floweren might understand, but they dont feel like that is an option.
They have a child, what are they feeling? That's the most confused ___ has ever felt in their life. They can't tell if they're happy or sad, ecstatic or anxious, tired or depressed. ___ really does hate herself, her negative feelings just kept getting worse. It used to be easier to not think too much about how people see her, the labels she had. They think it's just post partum depression, and if it is something deeper, then... That's too scary to think about.
Falling to the wayside, not living your own life, living through someone else, falling into the darkness, the nothingness, being forgotten... Do you have hope for this hero trapped in glass? I do... I think he'll blossom despite all the leaves falling. I'm not sure when but I feel like he'll find happiness, maybe it'll take long, or maybe not, but it won't be too late, it'll never be.
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