The Queer Crip Diaries

The constant existential crisis, finding purpose in the everyday

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Most of my life I have had a constant ebbing and flowing existential crises, always feeling like I was meant to do something, but never really knowing what it was. I always hoped that taking the next step; getting a Bachelor’s Degree or starting my first full-time employment would make my life’s purpose appear as an oasis in the desert, but that never…

When you go against the grain, but you lack self-esteem

Scrolling through my facebook; my friends are sharing their life experiences; weddings, getting married, buying homes. This is all great, this is all what should be happening as most of my friends are in their mid-to-late twenties. I am very happy for my friends, it is just a juxtaposition from my life. Here I am at 26, single, recently moved back to my home country to go back to University to…

The Wild World I live…thoughts on a jet plane

My life has been wild of late, jetting back and forth all over the country for grad school interviews. My latest travel companion has been a book titled The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown.

This book was recommended by my counselor Adam, as we are discussing my perfectionism as it pertains to all of my life, in particular my disability. Although this book has been a little cheesy…

Gender/Name Change – Episode 3: I changed my name in the UK!

Hi everyone!

I just wanted to post to give a quick update! I have changed my name in the UK! If you have not read my other posts about my name change process, you can see that here:

Name/Gender Change UK/US – Episode 1

Gender/Name Change – Episode 2: Process in the UK

You can watch my video about it here:

I decided to go to a solicitor in the end, because I have anxiety and did not want to do…

Gender/Name Change – Episode 2: Process in the UK

Sorry everyone, I forgot to post this, so this is from back in June 2018 when I was figuring out my name change and document change process in the UK:

If you don’t want to read all this, watch my youtube video here: https://youtu.be/ZNEYSyzVU2w

The adventure to change my name and my gender continues. This is what I know so far, or at least think I know. So, because I am a British citizen, I have…

Making of Home, check out my latest blog about my adventures across the pond. Just kidding it is an emotional roller-coaster about the truth in moving.

Just a blog update everyone! I have realised that I don’t really express my feelings a lot and writing them out is something that I think I want to do more of. 

So here I am, just over 1 week since arriving in England and I have had a busy week so far, contacting banks, doctors, lettings agencies, etc. Although I have many tasks to complete before I go back to school in September, I find myself…

Name/Gender Change UK/US – Episode 1

Hey everyone! Long time no see! I know I have been rubbish at keeping up this with this website, but I am back and I hope you will join me on a little journey. Many who know me and I am guessing if you have read this site. You would know that I am transgender. I think you might also know that I am British. I have been living in the US for almost 8 years consecutively (11 years total in my life)…