i'll grow

time to focus on me.

time to get rid of all of these toxic habits and thoughts that’s been drowning me for the past years. after being under water for such a long time, struggling to get up and get air ive realized that theres no other than myself that holding me down. ive been pushing myself down for so long and now im starting to pull other people with me. so,, yeah. i have to do this. i need to do this. so many stupid things are happening because im not taking care of myself and the people that matters to me. and, unfortunately, deactivating this blog is one of the steps towards a better me. 

im sorry if im dissapointing any of you because of this,, but i just cant go on telling myself that publishing edits that im never happy about; worrying about follower count, constantly checking this site (without updating) is healthy. ive been doing this for the past five years and to be quite honest, it’s only turned me into a much more unhappy and self-hating person than i was before (not to blame any of you guys or tumblr!) so ye. 

i hope all of you have a wonderful 2k16 and all the other years to come! pls take care of urself and all the beautiful people around you ♡ health is important!!