afire love

     arianna began wondering why was it that she dealt and put up with everything this relationship brought forth for it all to have been for nothing. a few years of being in love wasn’t worth the amount she’d have to spend knowing that the man she committed her life to suddenly didn’t feel the same. she felt like bursting into a million tears and crying and screaming her heart out in the privacy of her bedroom, but zayn was still standing in front of her, and ari wanted to keep some of bit of decency. “this whole relationship has been tiring, but y’know, i stuck around and worked it out because that’s just what you do. i’ve had to deal with so much shit, zayn, just for it all to come down to this?” ari scoffed, her eyes looking straight at zayn now, but her vision completely blinded by her tears.

  zayn took a breath, it getting caught in his throat. he noticed the tears in her eyes, of course he did but there wasn’t anything he felt he could do now considered he was the one causing this, he was the one making her feel the way she was. he nodded. “i know, ari, i know and i’m sorry,” he paused, his gaze shifting downwards, his hands sliding awkwardly into his pockets. “i wish i could--” but he stopped again, what could he say? “i mean, i wanted--” but yet again, he just kept quiet. he didn’t what to say or how to say it. 

      “ah, but maybe then that would be the start of a wonderful love-hate story that the audience can’t help but tune in to see,” she laughed, remembering how much of a strong response the two got even when they were both off and happy in their relationships. arianna moved in closer to zayn before resting a hand on her non existent bump, a small smile at her lips. “i’m sure it’ll be two against one anyway. i’m not sure i stand a chance against two zayn’s.” but she wasn’t going to mention how she could barely handle one. arianna joined their intertwined hands with her other resting on her pregnant stomach. “here’s to another six months of watching twilight to turn my child against me,” she grinned.

   his eyebrows furrowed together but there was still a smile evident on his face. “isn’t that what we were there for?” he threw back to her, remembering a time when the relationship between the two wasn’t often so friendly before it turned into just a love story. he shifted a little bit so he was looking directly at her with an amused grin on his face. “two zayns?” he questioned with a surprised tone. they hadn’t found out the gender yet as far as he knew. his eyes followed their hands to her stomach, a fond smile bearing his face. usually he was nervous and anxious about the whole baby thing since the first time but now he was finding himself excited about it. he was adoring the idea of them being a little family. he rolled his eyes at her comment, planting a kiss on her lips instead of giving a proper response.

     arianna bit down on her bottom lip to hide the smile on her face as her husband moved away from her. “only if this said breakfast is always followed by such an amazing night,” she chuckled, moving past him to make herself and zayn some coffee. “i’ll give you coffee in exchange for breakfast too since it’s the only thing i can let something else make around here.”  

   zayn’s eyes followed his wife as she moved to make the coffee. a smile braced his face before he released the pan and reached out to pull her into him, her back against him as he rested his head on her shoulder. “i love you very much” he mumbled quietly but happily. “did you know that?” and there was such a tone of adoration and amusement in his voice.

     arianna could honestly make them both breakfast because she wasn’t as unskilled as she liked to make herself out to be just to save herself the effort of cooking, and she nodded to answer zayn’s question in hopes that it bought her food every morning for the rest of her life. “i’d love you forever even though i already said i’d do that in front of a bunch of people, but i really mean it this time,” she chuckled, pecking his lips softly. 

         zayn hummed against her lips and pouted to pull her back to him, deepening the kiss before smiling and pulling away from her. "well," he started as he let go of her hand to get back to the pan on the counter to continue cooking. "i think i can manage that-- making you breakfast," he smiled back at her. "sound like a plan, babe?"

    arianna was a bit ticklish, laughing at the feeling of her husband’s fingers moving at her side. “but it would’ve made for some good television. maybe if i boosted their ratings by having your kid they’d have taken it easy on me,” she reasoned joining in on his laughter. “you might’ve said no to twilight like always.” but ari wasn’t going to argue against his decision to go along with her choice of movie since this was one of the rare times he did. arianna was happy to quickly get to their room and jump in their bed where their dogs and cat lay.

     he chuckled lightly and shook his head. "are you kidding? if it belonged to both of us they would have gone hard on the baby" he paused for a moment as he thought about it. "the child would have been getting tasks and sharing rooms with people they hated in hawaii" he grinned, pressing a light kiss to her hand as their fingers laced together, fitting perfectly. he looked down at the cluster of animals on their bed. "maybe i'm just letting the baby get sick of it so it'll be two against one" he suggested but there was a tone of amusement to his words. 

      arianna felt worse at his use of the word tried. it was horrible to know that he tried to find what he once loved about her to feel it once again, but there was something in him that couldn’t bring himself to do it. it, honestly, made her feel bad about herself. “i’m tired,” she cried, genuinely feeling herself grow exhausted. 

     "you're tired," zayn spoke, almost knowingly at the commonly spoken words between them as he tucked his hand into his pant pocket as if trying to find something to do with himself as he stood there, just watching her. he felt like shit, really. but he couldn't begin to imagine how she felt. he did love her, more than anything in the world--- but he just wasn't in love with her anymore. 

       arianna felt herself becoming enamored of the man that lay besides her. the way his tongue pressed against his teeth with every chuckle that left him and the gleam in his eye that came along with it had her captivated. ari’s lustful and teasing countenance had been softened upon zayn hovering over her. she was confused by his actions, but as his lips brushed against hers all of her confusion disappeared and was replaced with half-lidded dotting eyes and soft but zealous lips. she was disappointed when he pulled away, but her smile reappeared at his words. “what else wouldn’t you mind?” ari questioned with a raise of her brow.

    he found his words were managing to get caught in his throat and honestly? he would be very embarrassed about it. on the nights when the mtv house came to life, he was annoying, sure, but extremely confident-- irritably so. he could flirt and talk his way through anything but now he found he was shy almost. he wasn't entirely sure how to come across but he didn't actually feel as embarrassed as he would think. he chuckled, amused by his mind running away from him, glancing back up at her from where he was lying over her, still feeling the warmth of the kiss. he leaned back forward again, a soft smile lingering upon his features. "wouldn't mind doing that again" he mumbled, his eyes on her lips now. 

     arianna made a horrified face at his words, rolling her eyes. “you would not have a very happy wife on your hands, my friend. i’d probably kill you after a week and end up on snapped.” arianna was joking, but her tone implied that she was one hundred percent serious. a pout formed on her lips with her arms folded across her chest. “but i really want pancakes every morning,” she whined playfully.

    zayn grinned back at his wife, amused; his attention only drawn away when the pan in front of him sizzled. he laughed a little and turned back to cooking, pouring the mix onto the pan. letting it heat he walked back over to his wife, placing a hand on each of her arms, his thumbs gliding up and down what was probably his own shirt. he smiled and leaned forward to plant a kiss on her lips. "you really do?" he questioned back with a grin and a teasing expression in his eyes.

   arianna, of course, returned her husband’s kiss and her mood actually switched from sadness to a bit of joy. “yeah, if i knew that i’d have gotten knocked up a long time ago like took my virginity time ago,” she joked, running her hand over her non existent bump, but ari secretly hoped it was there. she actually enjoyed being pregnant; however, the circumstances of this pregnancy made it a bit harder to be joyous. “only if i’m getting comfortable oversized sweaters, tons of pillows, and a very warm husband and twilight,” ari smiled, taking her husband’s hand before leading him to their room.

       zayn chuckled lightly at her joke, his fingers tapping lightly against her sides as if it could soothe her in some kind of way. "well you lost your virginity to your boyfriends brother so i don't think having a baby would have made for the best situation there" he added on with a wink and another laugh. zayn smiled at her and nodded slowly at her special demands for her to want to take up his offer. with her hand in his he curled his fingers to entwine with hers, messing around subconsciously. "as if i would have offered without those things" he threw back as he allowed himself to be led.

     arianna was paralyzed. it was as if every nerve in her body was frozen and the only functioning part was repeating the words she never expected to hear especially not now. her chest felt heavy, suddenly feeling as if there wasn’t enough air in the room to fill her lungs. “why?” she managed to get out, winded and barely audible as the water works began.

     he couldn't look at her, at the hurt she would display at his words. he glanced away again as he shrugged lightly. "i-- i don't know ari. you didn't do anything, it's not you." and he paused because was he really giving the 'it's not you, it's me" speech? he chewed down on his lip before looking down at her again. "i'm sorry, i tried i really did but i just don't feel the way i used to about you."

        zayn noticed arianna's questioning expression but of course he just ignored it and gave her a little shrug as if to silently say back what he was thinking about then just didn't matter. he gave her a false frown at her weak answer but soon found his eyes lighting up with her laughter, amused by her simply. he shuffled on the bed a little so now his arm was sprawled across her chest, his chin resting on his inked-skin. his smirk matched hers as he nodded. he shuffled more so now he was hovering over her before moving so one of his hands cupped her face as he leaned in, his lips brushing hers softly once and then more fervently. this was a pretty confident and courageous act of him in his state but he just rolled with the punches, his lips moving with hers before he pulled away and went back to resting on her chest. "i wouldn't mind" he shrugged, casually.

     Her arms held him close to her, placing a kiss on the top of his head while her fingers played with his hair. Arianna chuckled at his response, “When we met or when we first saw each other? Because if I remember correctly, you were too busy trying to get in my family yourself the first time we saw each other,” she pointed out with a smile at the memory. Ari felt her face light up, her arms squeezing him in a childlike manner. “That was so cute. I hate you for how cute that way,” she got out in between kisses to his lips.

       Zayn laughed. He was amused by the whole fact that they had dated each others siblings at one point before finally finding their way to each other. He shrugged lightly. "Saw each other" he chuckled back. "We did speak when we first met, and it was just so very pleasant" he pointed out jokingly, his mind reeling back to their first conversation, also the first argument of many. He grinned down at her reaction to his words, an amused expression on his face. "Mhm," He mumbled back noises and sounds but no coherent noises, not being able between her kisses. He chuckled before moving so he could kiss her properly. "'Love you" he whispered lazily against her lips.

        arianna, in this moment, realized just how happy his happiness made her. here he was dancing around the kitchen at what she considered a very early time in the day making them breakfast and being this upbeat guy she wasn’t exactly used to him being. it was amazing. “you’re such a dork, zayn,” arianna laughed, watching him move away from her. she bit down on her lip to hide her smile, folding her arms over her chest. “you should make me breakfast like this every morning, really.”

       zayn just shrugged and laughed back at her when she called him a dork, his shrug basically one of agreement. his ipod shuffled onto the next song but he continued to move around a little to the beat every moment. he looked back at her, one eyebrow raised and a smirk formed on his lips. "imagine you waking up this early every morning" he teased her. "i just don't think it could happen babe, i'm sorry" he shrugged, his tone slightly apologetic but mostly sarcastic and amused.