i have made my post that i was forced to reblog due to vague, made another post to defend myself due to vague, and i said i wouldn't engage unless i was forced to which i am now.
i am being accused of several different things now by the people who are currently playing the victim card on the dash. i have literally woke up to all the mess and i have asked myself because i wanted to know what was happening in case i needed to block any more blogs for being weirdos to others since apparently a few rpc fandoms are losing it as of late.
i want to make a few points clear here first before anything, and i honestly do not know if i will keep my bog around or if i will delete thanks to this harassment and accusations that i am receiving, together with the invalidation of my triggers and trauma that are also being made to be about another person which is incredibly triggering and it brings me back to really bad times.
first off, no, you're all wrong, this does not come from shipping a couple that i do not agree with. that is pure bullshit, that is absurd. i have friends who ship things i do not agree with because i simply do not see those ships nor do i like them but i am not cruel to them. they talk to me about their ships, we engage in those conversations and i am not an asshole to them. in fact, i have discussed with somebody a verse / au for two characters that i do not ship together. on another note, i, too, write villains. i literally write these same characters on my multi side-blog and i have in servers, so the "let us write villains!" excuse is not appliable here, either.
this comes from february, when these people whose urls i will be exposing right now, but... i do not have to, because despite how i kept it vague for their own good, they went ahead and did whatever they wanted and put themselves out there due to their victim complexes. an anon was sent, that's as much as i know, i was off the dash that day and i came back to it being filled with grooming apologists. seen here:
there were more from other people, but these were the ones who hit me the most. not only invalidating grooming victims with "my uncle gave me a fucking bike at 3". i was not only a victim of grooming at the ripe age of 11 with the person giving me gifts constantly, which, whether or not you believe it, it is a clear sign of grooming, but far worse things have happened to me during that experience. "she pursued him", in no way can a minor pursue an adult, they do not know any better. i, too, was blamed for it and as i said, i was only 11. so yes, this is where my problem with these people comes from. it is not a ship, it is these excuses, these invalidations. i will also leave this very interesting article here, but let me put the screenshots in case you feel lazy to read through all of it.
however, there is more, i blocked one of them before i ever posted anything, i wanted to silently remove these people from my safe space and yet i woke up to this the very next day.
of course, it did not stop here, because why would it stop there? it simply continued! to the point i have mentioned taking comms and my graphics were, of course, shit talked. not even a big deal because i do not care. i like editing, people like what i make, they ask me for stuff and i am more than happy to provide. but also i was accused of stealing from them. i think everyone can take a guess of which one said this. because, i do not even want to say their names at this point, i am sorry.
as i said, it did not stop there, because this was posted later on which left me... extremely confused? personally, i do not know this person, nor do i know what kind of problem they have with me, unfortunately, they were somebody whose writing i admired but when i saw i was blocked i simply said "oh well, that's fine" and blocked them back, yet they had the need to post this. but of course i would include the comments.
i would like to know what this "spite" is about, because not only do i not have dupe anxiety and i actually get excited when i see somebody else write my same muse, i do not even care if these people stay or leave, i truly do not. i made my post because i was vagued about for blocking and curating my space, and they had continued this constantly. i was blamed for stalking, harassing, bullying, sending anons. for one, i do not check any blogs, if something is said and it's clearly about me, yes, it will find its way to me in case i wanted to defend myself, two, it is very curious i am blamed of these things and yet... it's known what i post, when i post, who i interact with, who i am friends with, the posts i comment on, the posts i like. i do not think the math is correct here...? but of course, just as everything else , i must be hallucinating it, making it up. for the record, as somebody who would rather confront and speak like adults ( by the way, one of you had the chance to, you had me added on discord and i can prove it ), i am not sending any anons, i do not waste my time doing that. i can assure you, there are other people out there who do not agree with any of this behavior of yours.
i was not going to mention this, i really wasn't going to. but it is come to my attention it's being blamed on me, claimed it's something i am making up but it's also something that triggered me a lot to the point i had ghosted my own blog as i said in my original, first post, for the longest time. all of this that i will show proves what the main person in all of this is being accused of. not tagged accordingly, not even under read more. and i want to make sure everyone takes a good look at who that is in the icon used. but of course, i will not be disclosing the other person's url.
it does not stop there, of course. this kind of stuff i had to be seeing on my dash, they claim they've never done it because "rhaenyra wasn't even 18" but it is on their blogs.
but of course, it does not end there, another thing that has bothered me for the longest time that might not be a big deal to others is the amount of biphobia these people also have, strictly making a canonically bisexual character into a heterosexual woman, but i suppose that is another story.
these are the things that have made me not want this person, or well these people, in my nearest vicinity. if it makes me a stalker, a harasser, a bully, a prude or a purist, then so be it. i do not condone these behaviors, i do not want these people near me, i want to be left alone. i want the vague, the victimization, the harassing, the constant checking my blog to see what i have posted, the going after my friends, i want all of it to end.
so please, lexi, do me a favor, stop making my traumas and triggers into a ship kind of war. i do not care what you ship. i couldn't care less who you write. this gross behavior was what made me not want you around me. you have also tried to force your ship on me with shippy memes time and time again, replied to a very normal and platonic meme i wrote for you in an extremely shippy way after you have begged on the dash for more d.aemyra. you make me, and a countless of other people, very uncomfortable. once again, please, just shut up. move on. quit it. leave me alone. you are not the victim you think you are. other people's experiences, traumas and triggers are not yours, stop claiming you write this character to battle your own traumas. it has taken me over a decade to be comfortable writing the themes i currently write, you do it very comfortably as we all already saw. just stop it, leave me alone, do not even bother responding to this. it is the very last time i put this shit on my dash while risking not only my own comfort but also other people's.
