Going to bed hungry while pregnant is the worst thing ever. My body feels like it's been deteriorating and rotting away. It's just too much for me to handle! Wish i could cry it all out but whos here to listen. Everyone got enough on their plates already.

How can you be happy and can't do the things you love??!! Maybe that's how miserable and pointless life is

I feel like I've ruined my life, my future and my dreams. It seems like i was dreaming the whole time now i just woke up to see my life in shattered pieces. All i've ever wanted is gone. Im hopeless with no control over my life or my body. I've become the opposite of what i wanted, im all that i hated. I wish i wake up thinking this also was a dream not a destined miserable life. Deeply i wish I could end it all, the pain is just piling up on my heart every single day. I wake up and all i could think of is how i could have been in a better place. I remember one time crying to one of my professors as we talked about the future and how i don't want to end in a certain way. But yay here i come. I became what i was crying not to be. Depression took my life, my education and also my friends while i seeped back into this little blue hole disconnected from everything i once built. What eats my soul the most is that i watched myself burn me. All is left is nothing. I just became nothin, maybe just a baby machine to people. I don't recognize myself anymore and it hurts. And when i had some hopes to bring my shit together, life fucked me up again. I saw death once and i wish it could have taken me...

I need someone to talk to, my overthinking is killing me

I never been this physically and emotionally fucked up at the same time, I wish i could really disappear rn.