chilluminati

i didn’t even realize what i went through until i talked to my closest friends and told them some of the traumas and they could literally not believe it.

makes sense why i was the “life of the party” but never had a super close best friend/s that actually wanted to hangout. they just wanted me there for entertainment and then go and do their own things

i wanted it all to end. i used to pray that jesus would come back and the world would end so i wouldn’t have to do it myself.

for context(even tho no one is reading): my wife and i moved out of state from my family and the only time we have seen them is when we travel back to my home state.

the only time my brothers came to visit was when I PAID FOR half of their airplane tickets. Meanwhile one was in med school to became a doctor and the other made 2 times as much as me.

i can’t say anything about how hurt i am that they won’t travel here or shoot down plans to meet in the middle because if they come now it will be because of guilt and not them actually wanting to see me and my family.

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