kaleidoscope diaries

lagi ko pinag-iisipan kung bakit palagi natin minamaliit ang ating kakayahan bilang mga Pilipino. Random tought dump. theres so many things i want to be great at but i really want to push my limit. the reest i get is the hours i skip by napping throughout the entire afternoon aftterschool. i have many pother thuings i want top start getting better bny but all that i really finish is....those bags pf unhealthy chips and food i stole asnf hid from my grandfather. and i eventually see myself doing stupid decisions, but i wonder everyday how the east asians get through it all. while me, i cant even get to the same level that they are. but why do i even want to b e on their level? if nobody was watching me, would i ever want to be great at all? im in a constant battle with myself. a part of me that tells me that im not goos enough. i really neeed to stop believing in that and fight for the truth and the truth is, my success is relative to my perception about the world and myself and the Lord.