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idk if i’ll walk out w something hopefully not bc Saturday is 4th of july but we’ll see :) just want to keep my options open tbh

idk if i’ll walk out w something hopefully not bc Saturday is 4th of july but we’ll see :) just want to keep my options open tbh

idk if i’ll walk out w something hopefully not bc Saturday is 4th of july but we’ll see :) just want to keep my options open tbh

i love that’s he’s also antagonistic with tokyo from the very beginning but tbh he’s off the hook even more so than berlin

this man literally got glass in his eyes and is STILL shit talking people and threatening them while he literally cannot see like 😭😭 i kinda love him already

it’s funny because I know that him and Berlin are like best friends or soulmates or whatever but like I always did wonder what type of character he would have to be in order to be so close to Berlin and be able to deal with him… i’m starting to wonder if berlin was the calm one in the relationship jfc he’s just way more out-of-pocket than Berlin and that’s saying something 💀💀

so apparently he’s been hooking up with helsinki (aka the only other gay character) and has apparently been mistreating him and nairobi called him out on this behavior because I think she was like going against a plan or something? And of course, with the show, they always love to go in tangent about random ass shit that they really should not be talking about during the current situation and lowkey….she was kinda right he was like lowkey objectifying helsinki in front of him just saying he was good fuck and nothing else while saying at the same time that helsinki was probably in love with him….lmao that’s incredibly bold and confident language from you sir but probably true; he even says that nairobis is probably in love with helsinki too that’s why she’s so defensive of him which was a mic drop if I ever ever seen one 💀

and i guess she was??? i always assumed they were in a lavender marriage type of relationship honestly so that didn’t surprise me much but in fact what surprised me was that she came back at palermo and his idea of love and men having sex with other men or whatever by saying if he believes he so unlovable and incapable of being in love then why was he in love with berlin for like 10 years 💀💀😭 which is true that’s an insanely long amount of time to dedicate to someone without reciprocating anything jfc

it didn’t really shock me because I knew about this for like years before, but still lmao he’s such a firecracker.

because lowkey i am now understanding that whole speech he did about like men vs women having sex and like the necessity of it or whatever because why does he refer to getting off as releasing the poison? that’s very fascinating to me and ik i’m reading into this character way too much tbh but it is interesting how he treats the concept of sex tbh like he tries not to be super attached to it but like clearly desires it and thinks he’s like unlovable (like he literally said nairobi loves helsinki, helsinki loves him and he loves nobody…lmao) and no one actually wanted him the way he wants to be wanted because andrés didn’t want him 😭🙏🏽 so sad

also nairobi reading him by saying he couldn’t even tell andrés that he loved him and followed him around like a puppy until he died 💀💀 i miss my girl so bad she did the same thing with berlin and it was…not received well lmao

idk if i’ll walk out w something hopefully not bc Saturday is 4th of july but we’ll see :) just want to keep my options open tbh

thankfully i do enjoy my job still but i just don’t want to stay there just because but at the same time…i literally moved closer to my job for a reason lmao

but tbh i’m doing a lot better w socializing with the members more than i was when i first started there only took three years 🙆🏽‍♀️ lmao but i def want to do more w my committees that’s for sure

because lowkey i am not a competitive person and i don’t necessarily want to have to fight for where i am in the office necessarily but it’s quite difficult to figure out where i am exactly if i’m learning what ppl think of me on a second-hand basis 🫠

because it’s not necessarily a bad opinion, thankfully, like i suck at my job, but i’ve been told that apparently it seems like i’m coasting through this job, which i won’t lie, it could seem that way because i just want more so to be seen like as competent and that i know what i’m doing, which i have gotten more confident in myself and my committees. and i have been trying to take more initiative in things that I am doing but it’s just lowkey so difficult to speak with my boss at times like she is not an approachable person in the slightest but i’ve gotten better with that too

because it’s one thing to not micromanage which i appreciate but it’s another to just completely disengage and me having to hear feedback second-hand about my performance when you won’t tell me yourself

and it’s something i have been working on since i’ve been here and i’ve gotten immensely better at it since i started but idk i just need to figure out a way to make myself different from everyone else because i don’t want it to be like i’m taking up space and just cruising