Spiderwebs And Lace

hey guysss so unfortunately the rumors are true and im leaving the narrative. Buttt the good news is my absence will create such a gaping hole in your lives that it will become a sort of presence itself, and so in a way it will kind of be like i never left! But i am. Leaving just to be clear.

[image id: slanted yellow glittering font reading “it’s friday afternoon there goes antigone to be buried alive”. end id]

small town diner waitress voice: Omelas? Oh, oh no, easy mistake, you're in oh - MAY - las right now, with an A. Plenty' people get the name mixed up. Nope, no utopia here, just our small little town. *face gets really grim* We do still.. Okay well we do still have a kid that we... I mean it isn't working but- well- You know. It- It's fine. I'm sure it'll start working soon.

there is a particular kind of lesbian t4c pornographic art that is common among, like, "sapphic" "spicy" patreon artists on twitter/bluesky that i don't think is deliberately or malevolently chasery per se but kind of stumbles assbackwards into it. what happens in my assessment is that the artist (not a trans woman) projects onto the submissive cis bottom characters, which is fine, but then the artist tries to project all of her other kinks onto the other character all at the same time -- which is also not necessarily bad, except, well, when those kinks are "size difference" and "muscles" and "breeding" and "PIV" and "lots of cum" and "getting cummed inside of for real," and the lesbian artist wants to put them all together simultaneously, and especially if the artist may genuinely but naively want to be inclusive of trans women in lesbian art, you end up with very sleek but offputting trans woman top fetish pornography that i can really only describe as "pronouns futanari"

everybody saying they know what artist i'm vagueing here is almost definitely all thinking of different people, anybody wondering how to avoid falling into this pitfall ought to consider trans women who don't use their dick and trans women who don't even have dicks at all (but my theory is that in addition to tasteless and kneejerk aversion to neopussy, a lot of artists would very genuinely have no idea how to signpost that a character is trans otherwise because their imagination just straight up does not extend that far - but IMO, that's exactly what this is about! you're telling me that for one reason or another, this artist seems to have a lot less interest in "trans women" and everything that could possibly entail, and a lot more interest in an almost fantastically rendered category of "women who just so happen to have [working!] penises" that you can't help but feel is treated as something distinct from the former? nihil novi sub sole, even if there's maybe a little more lip service)

now i have not seen K-Pop Demon Hunters but what I have seen, as the perfect example of this, is score upon score of artists drawing the half-demon one fucking the other ones (but usually the smallest one) with the penis that the artist implies that she would simply and obviously and naturally have on account of being half-demon. i have tried and failed to look it up but there is another post floating around somewhere about how common it is for sapphic teratophiles to treat every even slightly monstrous woman as ultimately just a phallus and it's a very similar, overlapping concept

fiction can be really dangerous there might be a deeply tragic woman in there who starts living in your head forever

i don't really want to weight in on the "using big words in your writing is ableist" discourse happening on tiktok because i'm like 90% certain it's an anti-intellectual psyop to stir up drama in online circles to promote the use of ai to summarize literally everything and thus feeding the LLMs and lowering the populace's mistrust of such tools but i also have to say: dictionaries and thesauruses are the most accessible they've ever been. if you use an e-reader of any kind you can look up a word without leaving the page. there's a plethora of online dictionaries and if you just type a word + "meaning" into google it'll usually give you a definition. we used to have pocket dictionaries we used when reading in class. i have two on my shelf right now that i used in high school. stop letting the fascists purposefully misuse anti-ableism rhetoric to trick you into never thinking again.

oh fuuuuuuck ive never been saved and never will be saved

CMON!!!!

you’re going to love again, find a job again, create art again, do what you love again, feel powerful again. you’re going to be back on track. i don’t know when, but you are going to feel like yourself again, eventually. this isn’t the end. hang in there.

Sometimes I see people be wrong about occult shit and I just kinda let that shit float by. Like, I can properly recognize that this would not be the time or place to have a big Online Argument about a fairly nuanced topic that is difficult to discuss even in the best of circumstances. The more I learn the more I'm okay with people being wrong about stuff. Like, it's very hard to turn sneering combative pedantry into knowledge. Its much more productive to turn casual interest into knowledge.