title: sovereign of no one, leader of nothing when: post the tinkerer where: rome trigger warnings: suicidal thoughts, allusions to violence, sad shit
On the ninth day of the siege, Yurena Aguirre dies.Â
She dies at her brotherâs hand, dies because she is loved.
Yurena Aguirre died because she wasnât loved enough.Â
There is no one left to love her enough. Not with her covenâs souls scattered amidst the stars, her oldest companion doomed to the depths of Hell. There is no parental warmth to seek out, none of Kaitoâs warmth at her back, none of Erikâs steady presence over her shoulder, no steadfast support from her coven mates. Her only friends have other loyalties to pay heed to, most of the relationships she had before Alstroemeriaâs fall have burned to ashes due to her own doing.Â
And Sethâ Tepiltzinâ Whatever he is called, he who she had hoped would be different? All he does is watch, and there is no hint of regret that she can find on her face.Â
Yurena Aguirre died alone, desperately wishing for someone who cared.Â
At that moment, on top of the tower in New Dis, no one did.Â
Yurena Aguirre dies a martyr, unloved in the ways that matter.Â
Yurena remembers.Â
Moments like this leave a mark that cannot be erased.Â
Yurena does not die, calling forth the daimona days before she planned, memories of a life unfulfilled at her fingertips. Dying in agony, dying underneath her brotherâs gaze. She remembers it all.Â
She wonât forget.Â
Canât.
Despite the memories of pain, despite the phantom touch of death gripping at her throat, she raises her Elysian Horn to her lips and blows.Â
The future changes before her eyes, Octavianâs madness thwarted, the book destroyed. And her brother Augustus? And the last of Erikâs legacy? He is saved by a hand not her own, the magic stealing his soul stolen from him in return. Itâs his salvation, even if he does not see it.Â
Itâs a relief.
Itâs an ending.
A pyrrhic victory for the last of Alstroemeria, the satisfaction of fulfilling Erikâs last wish, the bitterness that makes her unable to meet Augustusâ eyes as he is taken away. In the future that never was, Yurena Aguirre had learned that her brother had died and could not be saved and that had been the final push she had needed to risk it all. In the future that is, Yurena learns that all the love in the world would not have saved Augustus, least of all hers. She learns that her devotion is unmatched, her loyalty yet another string for him to tug as a bleeding heart.Â
Love, the greatest weapon of them all.Â
Love, the greatest betrayal.Â
Deep within, Yurena Aguirre had known this as an universal truth: the bond of siblings was more important than any other, parents left too soon and lovers came too late, siblings were there throughout.Â
Unfortunately for her, Yurena Aguirre died at her brotherâs hand and the person left behind cannot face Augustus' eyes without seeing the cold calculating gaze of a being that would break her apart and feed her to the book for just a little more power.Â
She meets Erenâs eyes instead, looking at the man that had cut through the Asphodel forces for Augustus, for the lover that now had a chance when he didnât before. She meets Alexander, Achilles and the countless versions of the man that loves Augustus and nods at him, washing her hands from the necromancer who had become human.Â
She had given one life for Augustus, and him none for her. She had given him her life once, and once was enough.Â
Yurena allows herself to be taken by the Allied forces after that, an specter of the once great coven reduced to a martyr that had returned from death once more against all odds. Blood magic stains her hands, necromantic rot buried on her bones even as the book lies destroyed, and she expects nothing less than eternal damnation as she is presented before the Senate.Â
She does not expect forgiveness.Â
Does not deserve it, does not want it.Â
Donât they see that she has nothing? That she is nothing? She is a hollowed vessel, Pandoraâs pithos without its hope.Â
She is nothing and no one, a ghost unloved and unmourned.Â
Unfortunately for her, she is also the last Alstroemeria and despite her desire to reach out for the oblivion that Augustus had so kindly delivered her to, she cannot rest. Her crimes pardoned for the betrayal that once killed her, that no she wishes it had, she is given back her home, broken and shattered as it is by the months it spent under Asphodelâs and Cavaliereâs control.Â
She has a home, but not a coven.Â
She has the ghosts that never were and can never be pressing down and suffocating her.Â
She has a duty.Â
And she has never been anything but the dutiful daughter.Â
She is Yurena Alstroemeria, and she has a coven to rebuild. Coven of one, house haunted by what was lost and by the blood spilled within itâs halls, she awaits on the halls of those who have long gone, walking along with her ghosts as she rebuilds the Reliquary step by step, as she builds barriers and wards and cleans the rot that has been buried into the very stone.Â
She is far too busy to be alone, and yet she is nonetheless.
And so, dying will have to wait for another day.Â
For weeks, she heals from the aftermath, builds the walls around her heart until it is protected against those she knows will attempt to use her once more. The Coven members she has betrayed, the blood witches that will not take her contribution to the Senateâs cause laying down. She prepares for a Cold War that will follow her into her grave, for immortality is not a stranger to those who now despise her and immortality has long slipped from her grasp.
Yurena Alstroemeria prepares to be even a shadow of the Sovereign she could have become, in another life.Â
She does not prepare for the Senateâs mercy, nor their mockery of a reward for her undying loyalty to her coven, to Erik.
Augustus Cavaliere is released to her care, to live in Alstroemeriaâs House forever more, haunting the halls with the very same nightmares that plague her night.Â
Her only family brother everything murderer is allowed to live in her home, in hopes of rehabilitation. He is given Alstroemeriaâs House as an open air prison because it is his home. Nevermind that it had not been his home since he had been banished for the very same action that had set him down on the path that almost destroyed them all. Nevermind that he had once turned her home into the antithesis of everything Erik had ever believed in, twisting it into a mockery of Alstroemeriaâs legacy by inviting Asphodel into its halls. Nevermind that one of his last victims had attempted to make it her refuge.
It is what Erik would have wanted.Â
And Yurena, Aguirre or Alstroemeria, is too loyal to her mentor to deny his wishes, even when they are whispered beyond the grave. Even when they are implied on the heavy tongues of those who had known him in a different capacity than her.Â
In the end, she knows it to be true.Â
Erik had always wanted for his son to return home, and Yurena had lost a brother in the war, but the former Sovereign is long dead and cannot say he has lost his son.Â
Despite her desire to stop martyring herself for her people, Yurena accepts the decision, martyrs herself once more why is it always once more when will it be enough she wants to live she wants to be free someone anyone please choose her someone please love her someone someone is anyone listening? for the man that would never do the same on her stead, and keeps her mouth shut as the proceedings take place.Â
For one last time, within the halls of their ancestral home, Yurena awaits her brotherâs return. She doubts the man that will walk through the door will resemble the brother she lost. Doubts he will even notice her presence amidst the grief of losing his magic and his self-proclaimed destiny.Â
Nevertheless she waits.
She welcomes him into their ancestral home, into their magic halls, into the memory wrought courtyards. Offers him the Guestâs Privileges, offers him physical comforts and the luxuries the coven can afford.Â
Then, and only then, she goes out of her way to ensure they are not in the same room again. Not while it is only the two of them that haunt these halls.Â
She makes sure not to make it too noticeable, lest the Senate decide to relocate him, but that is far from a challenge. A Sovereign for a coven of one she might be, but that does not mean her duties fall as short as her numbers. Yurena makes herself busy, striking friendships, rebuilding bridges, cleaning her bookstore from the most wretched grimoires on her collection and delivering them upon Amaranthus for their study, volunteering into the charitable branches of the Eye that open around Rome. It does not matter that the Eye has destroyed her once, it does not matter that they are the reason why Erik was not able to destroy the Necronomicon before it fell into Augustus' grasp.Â
She had been forgiven for the unforgivable, it is only fair that she would forgive them for the same.Â
The Returned Martyr keeps herself busy, setting down the foundations for a life that once was hers but she had burned away.
All the while, she feels eyes on the back.Â
Judging eyes, resentful eyes, hateful eyes.Â
She accepts them all, for she knows the feelings are justified.Â
Yurena learns not to pay attention to the eyes that follow her everywhere, and in doing so, fails to notice the eyes of a liche looking for his little bird witch, not realizing that the witch is dead.Â
In her place, itâs a specter rebuilding herself into a woman.Â
In her place, stands a Sovereign.Â
Yurena Aguirre dies on the ninth day of the siege on a future that never came to pass.Â
Yurena Alstroemeria lives in her place.

















