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i wonder how long this will feel bad. how long my hands will shake before getting into a car with someone. until i won’t cry at the thought of going out. very sad since it ruined one of my favorite places. ruined my night where i can’t think of anything else now. ruined everything before. ruined my after.

being assaulted is weird. like it happens and then i still have to go home and shower and go to work and do all the things i usually do at work. and then i see things, like the book I read, the lunch i accidentally left in the fridge, and it’s like these are things that existed pre assault. and i read that book and ate that lunch before i knew what would happen. i did all the things i normally do without having time to prepare for my life to change forever

and once again my life is altered forever and nothing i can do can fix it

feeling sad and scared

puppy’s going to club tonight to go dancing and get very drunk with her friends !

being passive because im scared to get left if i speak my mind. a terrible way to live and it is the thing i hate most about myself. spineless and to be subjected to unending abuse

yayyy feeling stupid n unloved n chopped today !

thank God im #latina

feeling so depraved and perverted i feel like i’ll never be in a healthy or normal relationship