babie

will post here everything tf i want bc y not im sad

the night hangs heavy and so does my heart. im lying on my bed, my man beside me deeply asleep. he's dreaming of his future while im silently crying me heart out. im thinking bout life and how much i fucked it. now he's dreaming of graduation day and im still crying thinking how to do the same. why do i have to be so weak, so slow, so mediocre. not even mediocre, maybe. its so sad that im so happy for him and soon he's gonna be someone im not sure im gonna be. idk. does school really suck?? NO. I SUCK. I ALWAYS SUCK. AT EVERYTHING I DO. but it's too late to change what i had started. i still want to end this. i still want to try. i want him to see me get what he did. NO, i want us to get everything done together. BECAUSE i'm afraid to be left alone fighting. I'M SCARED. Now he's snoring. He's done dreaming. But, i'll stay beside him. I wish he'd do the same. Shit! Tears are falling again.

di ako pinapansin ng dude ko mga 14 hrs na NOT OK!!!!!!

i am so fucking tired of people. im sorry.

i wanna see u but u're not mine

dead

can i be dead

i am so alone. again.