October 28, 2014.
do you ever feel like you're not living?
i mean, you're breathing and functioning but you're not really living.
my life is a catastrophic hot mess right now and it feels like it's never going to sort itself out. i'm really not enjoying this part of my life right now; i have no idea when I'll ever finish school and even then I haven't a clue about what I want to do after. It just feels like when I jump through one hurdle I just encounter another one.
I don't want to watch life pass me by, which is why I'm going to school and doing these things but I feel obligated to do them. None of this makes me happy. And what makes it worse is that people I know seem to know exactly what they want from life. They have their whole lives planned out and working according to plan... and me? I'm just trying to make it through each day without tearing my hair out and screaming.
I'm alive, but I'm not living.
















