just keep on going

“Some things just change from one day to the next and suddenly everything is different. You look back and fail to understand when and how things got so out of hand. Because sometimes you wake up in the morning and you no longer feel the same way you did the day before. There’s no explanation for it. There’s no reason. And at first it probably doesn’t even make sense. It scares you. It scares you how you can go from being head over heels for a person or an idea or a plan to not caring anymore in the space of a night. Because this hollowness in your stomach, the numbness in your chest - this indifference is worse than anger or sadness. Because you can barely recall why it ever mattered to you in the first place. You can replay the memories in your head but they’ll be fading, soon to be nothing more than empty frames that lose their meaning. And you wonder why it had to happen, why things couldn’t stay the same. Reliable and repetitive like clockwork. Because that’s not how feelings work. They come and they go and they act up when you could do without them. But that’s how you get through this, as you get through anything: you take your time, you let go, you move on and all the while you heal. And before you know it, you’ve grown.”