I left the company I've been with for six years. The past few months I've been working for a new company. We're opening a new restaurant this weekend. Pray for me!

When I have a stressful day, I either come home crying or too hyper for my own good. Either way, I clearly need fed. Big thanks to Luke for honoring my psychotic requests.

Alex, I'm so sad you left and I hope you found peace.

My cousin invited himself and his girlfriend over last night. He said she had to work early so they wouldn't be over too late. I thought I could do will with drinking a little. I decided to pour light and drink only three drinks for the evening. Well, they came over and we had a blast. I drank twice as much as I anticipated, they stayed until "bar close", I felt guilty all night about breaking my sobriety streak, threw up when they left, and woke up feeling like shit. Drinking is not something I can handle. This is seriously a slap in the face, and I'm going to be in a couple of situations coming up where I know I will drink with colleagues and I don't know how to handle this.

I have not had a drop of alcohol in 35 days. AA is terrifying and this "higher power" business keeps me from working the steps. I feel physically better but emotionally detached from everything. A job I loved repulses me and I hate every company who doesn't want to hire me. I have not had friends, only drinking buddies and I feel so alone. I'm tired of being asked when I'm going to start drinking again. ISO contentment.

So far, so good.

I made an offer on a house. Cubs won 17-3. Today was a good day.