Yes, I was open about my racist intrusive thoughts. Yes, I am a white person, and privileged over people of color.

I understand Lyall's disturbance over me mentioning that these thoughts are also detrimental to me. Well, they are. That's why they're called "intrusive". I don't want them there. And I am in therapy for a multitude of reasons, including stopping these thoughts.

I want to clarify that these thoughts are not violent. The worst thoughts I get are to call a person of color a slur. Of course, I would never do this. I know better. And of course, this doesn't make the thought any less bad.

I personally think I shouldn't be cancelled for talking about my mental illness. And I'm not "blaming my racism on my mental illness".

I got the answer I needed, and I really don't wanna talk about this anymore, at least for today.

I understand why a person of color would be disturbed by this. And I want to say I'm sorry. At the moment, I can't control what my brain tells me.

for reference, this is what david tennant’s nose looks like. he has a straight roman nose that squishes up a little when he smiles widely. he has no distinctive hook or nose bump. the tip of his nose, notably, does not curve down beneath his nostrils. he and michael sheen have similarly sized and shaped noses, except that michael’s turns up at the end where david’s turns slightly down.

if you find yourself drawing crowley where it resembles the nose on the right here,

take a step back and rethink your drawing. think about the stereotypes and tropes you are upholding, and why you’re choosing to make a hooked nose prominent on a demon.

And no, it is not enough for this to exist ‘next to the police’. The harm is in the fact that circumstances of personal and interpersonal harm are viewed through the lens of law and punishment.