semi-active Dec2020

Things r good 👌 been stalling so i was afraid but getting back to exercising moved up things. Took a pic in the mirror yesterday, was baffled by my waistline. I’m p content w how I look rn, and feel rlly proud. I feel pretty. I’m not at my GW or have my ideal body yet, but I’m almost there.

4 months have passed already. Total loss of 18.1kg.

I have been having cake recently, feeling great! I shall have some more soon. I really like pastries - I mostly have korean/japanese ones from bakeries or cafes because they’re p light.

From now on I don’t mind if I lose slowly being already at a normal weight.

Hectic week, just suddenly raised my caloric intake and tried to boost my metabolism so I can eat around 1000kcal a day. It’s a difficult and frustrating process, weight fluctuated and went up like crazy, but it finally went down yesterday. I’m afraid of raising to 1Kkcal permanently though in fear of gaining weight and not losing anymore, since my body’s been used to eating 700-800kcal for months. Haven’t been exercising at all. I’ll still keep it around 800kcal some days of the week to be sure I lose weight.

‘binges’ habits die hard, I have less control around snacks than at the start of my diet. 

Overall, I love eating and always look forward to my next meal. Been keeping up with OMAD 3 to 5 days a week. Gonna make some yakisoba tomorrow. 

Oh, also, I’m very consistent with prepping meals for school. I legit only eat home cooked now, and don’t buy any processed crap, didn’t think that it’d turn out like this during the holidays!! Was so afraid to be tight on time, but I’m fine, I only ever cook quick meals. 

Gonna treat myself to some hamburger/fries, japanese or korean next week-end; it’s been so longgg. I love cooking for myself but I also miss this kind of food.

its been going well going well, had a chocolate week last week + a raise of caloric intake so didnt lose any weight smh i’m kinda slipping up so I’m not gonna buy any more chocolate for now and I’ll snack on rusks if needs be

I really enjoy and value eating. So much more that it occurs only once in a day. I take the time to appreciate the taste of each ingredient. Counting calories helped me change my relationship w food, and become aware of its nutritional value. Really enjoying the process.

really like how I look. I’m becoming more confident. I finally noticed that I’m so much thiner. feeling the bones in my wrists, feeling and seeing some arm muscles, my face has less cheek and less double chin, my jaw is well defined. I keep touching it. I notice the change most in my arms. I can feel the hardness of my upper arm muscles. feels great. i’m not too bloated anymore, too. not much love handles anymore. mom complimented me when she saw me in the morning in underwear. saw my body in the mirror too, and I was pleasantly surprised.

71th day -13.2kg in total

2 MONTHS : -11.3kg

Wish I had done this properly so that I could have lost them in a month :( some youtubers are very good at this...

AUGUST, 18TH 2020

GOAL WEIGHT 1 REACHED  ✅

i’m 3 pants-sizes down

fixed my p**ping problem by making sure i get enough fibers. some brand of water helped as well

had a bad 1K+ calories meal today at dinner, much later than i usually eat (i’m on OMAD, only eat at lunch). the amount of carbs is disastreous. not a ‘binge’, just didnt wanna waste food (take-away), and knew i didnt wanna finish it tomorrow bc i really didn’t like it... still left some left-overs bc it was too much for me.

I think I have a healthy relationship with food tbh. I eat whatever i want. i dont really have bad food cravings like at the start of my diet when I was left hungry w 500kcal/day and was obsessed with food.

currently d36 i think, i don’t have a scale here bc i’m on vacation. i can /barely/ fit in clothes that are 3 sizes down my og pants size

total loss -5kg (~11lbs)

I’m looking forward to eating tomorrow. There’s a lot of japanese food and ingredients in the fridge.

i’m on a vlcd (and not hungry), do hiit and cardio

and i still have the same amount of belly fat

it’s so frustrating....