disappearing act

“If I had one penny for everytime I wasn’t cool I’d have like… zero pennies. –Mic drop.”

“Did you just... did you just say-- mic drop?” “You’re not supposed to say mic drop, My.”

no one here even knows i exist let alone my name or who i am, i think you’ll be safe. so when do you think you’ll be going back? i mean no i’m not really sure but i’m not going to let you ruin your career because of me being a drunk mistake.

but they know me viv. And like, if we don’t figure out... this, they’ll know who you are too. I mean, I watched the same thing happen with my old bandmate Noah when had his daughter. The parazzi literally tore his life apart once they figured out what was going on. In like two weeks. I’m trying to spend some time with my sister and stuff while i’m here. Pretending this isn’t happening... isn’t gonna save my career. I can’t just flake on you. It’s not right.

Oh…

i’m taking that as a no. because... no, we don’t need to talk about it.

Hell yeah! No, nothing… happened. Just got busy doing other shit. Y’know you were a punk back then, right? You should stay here…. Please?

Oh, Okay.  I know, I’m still a punk now. But now I make music and people think i’m cool. Oh, Reag. Hey, I have like.. two weeks left. Don’t be starting that now.

it’s not just something you can decide in a snap, riley. oh yeah because those three things are totally the definition of life these days. i won’t lie, that was kinda douchey but honestly you don’t have to try to make up for it, i’m fine, you can move on with your life or whatever.

I-I know, I just- we need to figure this about before somebody catches wind off it and... everybody knows. totally, totally.  I..I don’t..?. Oh. Well uhm-- oh. ...Are you sure? 

Why not, buster?

SHUT UP!

are we gonna talk about when we got drunk and I, y’know -- sucked your silicone dick...?

Yes, let’s do it. I took a year off– had too much to do… Yeah, 7 sounds about right. I love being the goalie or defender. I miss you when you’re away, y’know.

Cool, I’m down! Oh, you did. Is everything okay? Or did, like- did something happen? I know, I remember being 9 and being too cool to go to your soccer games. I also remember how goalie or defender were your favorite positions.  I know, sis. I miss you too. I probably miss you the most. 

You’d like that too much.

You were mean first! Dissing the only thing that brings me happiness in life.

i’m literally not saying anything.

And I’m buying you Taco Bell just so I can say I hope you choke.

on your dick.

Underwear dancing is so empowering! Kesha’s new music brings me so much life, honestly. I’m good! Tired as fuck, wanting another tattoo (and lacking the funds for one). Soccer’s been keeping me busy, though. How about you, bubs?

Wait, you want another tattoo? Me too! I mean, I’ve been thinking about getting another one. We should go together, before I leave again. I can pay. I’m glad you’re still doing soccer, I mean you’ve been playing that since you were like, what, 7? Well, tour is keeping me busy. I love it, but its good to be home for a little bit.

Bubs, you’re not an idiot. You made a mistake; we all do. Have you told Dad?

Nooo. No way. I’ve barely even talked to dad since i’ve been back. And I don’t need to tell dad anything. I mean i’m 20 for fucks sake. The less people I tell about this the better. I’m fucking scared shitless of this spreading like wildfire. I only told you, well, because you’re my sister and I trust you and I tell you everything.

Who wants to go get me taco bell while I lay in my room and attempt to write songs?

But taco bell gives you diarrhea. 

…What the fuck? You better be shitting me. 

Nope, nope and nope. I fucked up, i’m an idiot. I ruined everything. I ruined my life, I ruined fucked up my career. I ruined this poor girls life.

Then make it easy.

Right.  Well, I’ll... try.

Why were you an idiot this time?

..Whats the stupidest thing I could do as a person, with a dick?

‘ you are not an idiot… unless you did something stupid. what’d you do? does it involve myles? ’

“No! No way!” “I mean, ... I do stuff involving Myles- but that’s... not it. Not the stupid thing.” “I mean- Woah. That sounded wrong. No, the stupid thing does not involve myles.”

The best feeling is dancing around in your underwear, and not giving a fuck. God bless Kesha for all of her new songs. She is a queen amongst us mortals.

Didn’t exactly need to hear about you dancing around in your underwear... But I don’t not agree. Her new music is actually really awesome. Real inspirational and shit. Hey! But how are you? I’ve missed youuuu!