Every step felt like an entire mile and every single breath you took got stuck in your throat as you tried your best to wrap your brain around it, and only a firm knock on your door made you snap out of your foggy helplessness, followed by Heeseung's calm, awfully attractive voice.

"Open up, Sugar. It's okay. It's just me, we're only gonna talk", he said calmly, your heart slamming against your rib cage as you reached for the doorknob with sweaty, trembling hands and when you opened it, your brain short circuited.

Because there he was; Lee Heeseung, standing at your door in just a crisp, white shirt and a pair of pair of slacks, blonde hair slicked back, expensive watch on his wrist and his ringed fingers massaging his hand.

"Sugar, deep breaths", Heeseung said as his gaze softened in concern, being met with the exact sight he'd been expecting because at the end of the day he knew you much better than you cared to admit.

You followed his demand and took a few deep breaths, his eyes roamed your face and then he nodded in approval, "good girl. May I come in?"

You nodded your head this time, awfully used to his praise because Heeseung had always been a, well, very vocal guy.

"I'm glad you and Chanie moved into these typa dorms instead of that stinky old two bed place you used to live in", Heeseung said as he casually walked down the hallway into the living room where he sat down and looked up at you, his gaze gentle and calm, his entire demeanour managing to calm you down as usual.

Heeseung looked up at where you were standing your cute little pyjama set, your eyes attentively roaming his face as you just took him in and he knew very well how much you'd probably been overthinking this.

"Sugar, are you acting like this because you're utterly horrified and never want to see me again? Or are you like this because you actually want me to teach you some stuff and take your virginity?"

Heeseung's words made your head spin the more he spoke and as you finally sat down on the couch across from him, you held your head, then tilted your head to the side.

"Come on, use those words for me. It's fi-"

"But it's not! It's not fine, Heeseung! You're Jaehyun's brother! We- We practically grew up together!" You interrupted him and just from the tone of your voice Heeseung knew it was the latter of his suggested suspicions which had made you gone crazy just a little.

"So? Hyun's gonna be fine, it's just sex", Heeseung replied oh so casually, making your eyes widen and your entire body burn.

"Don't say it like that!" You whined and covered your face with your hands, hiding from Heeseung's intense gaze.

"But that's what this would be. You want someone to take your virginity and teach you things, I don't want Sunghoon or anyone else to do it but I also don't want anything serious. So, it's done, nothing else to decide", Heeseung said and stared at you like he'd just come up with a masterpiece of a plan and your brows furrowed at the way he seemed so utterly happy with himself.

"But- But- Good gracious, stop fucking looking at me like that, Heeseung", you hissed and pushed his face away, making him chuckle and the more he watched you, the more he somehow wanted you.

"Sugar", he began and reached for your hand, engulfing it with his large ones as he caressed your wrist, "do you want this? Yeah? Say it, baby. Use your words with me, always."

You hesitated for a few seconds before you stared into Heeseung's dyes and eventually nodded, "yes, Seungie."

"Good girl", Heeseung smiled brightly, "now that's gonna be one of our rules, okay? If we do this, we do it right and properly. Number one, you will always use your words with me, no matter what. I want you to be loud and vocal, sweet girl", he continued and all you could do was nod, then quickly adding a 'Yes' to it.

"There we go, off to a good start", Heeseung raked his fingers through his hair and sighed, then looked back into your beautiful eyes but concentrated on the task at hand, "second rule: I want you to use a title for me that might not be up your alley, so we'll practice rule one really quick", you nodded at Heeseung and held your breath when his cheeks flushed gently before he continued to speak, "I want you to call me Daddy whenever it's just the two of us. Is that okay?"

Your heart skipped a beat, then it dropped form the center of your throat all the way down between your legs, your pussy clenching in utter despair at the mere thought of using a word so lewd and naughty for Heeseung and yet, you nodded because you were definitely not gonna deny him something lile this.

"Yes, it's okay", you said as your heart raced and Heeseung smiled, caressing your pulse point on your wrist with his thumb.

"Good girl, you're doing great, Sugar", Heeseung said, then cupped your cheek in his large hand, "we're exclusively seeing and fucking each other and no matter how badly I want to breed you, we will always use condoms", he continued and you tried your best to hear his every word and process it full, "I'm only gonna fuck you in a bed or one of our homes, I don't like fucking in pulic and I hate quickies. You'll understand why, soon enough."

Your eyes widened before you both bursted into laughter and the sound of Heeseung's made you realise that this was indeed the Lee Heeseung you'd always had a crush on and the one guy who'd been making you laugh since you were a tiny girl.

"I do like kissing and snuggles, cuddles and aftercare is a must and non negotiable even if it/'s just a very quick feedback, okay?"

"Okay", you replied and sighed, fidgeting with Heeseung's rings before he cupped your face again, making your gaze meet his,* "no strings attached. This is only sex, baby. But if, at one point, you begin catching feelings, you do what?"

Your lips stretched into a gentle smile before you finished his sentence,* "I always use my words."

"That's my good girl. Now, I have to go because I have to hesd to the airport, but I want you to think of things you want to try, what you wanna start off with and what you'd really rather not try", Heeseung got up on his feet, then bent down to kiss your forehead before he bent down to whisper in your ear, "and then I'm gonna make that pussy mine."

With those words, he simply told you to be safe and actually walked out, leaving you there, ruined panties, hardened nipples and those sweet little cramps you got when you knew you were awfully turned on. You weren't sure if this was a good idea but you were damn sure Heeseung was gonna make it feel like one.

A/N: again, i'm so sorry for making you guys wait!! tysm for all the lovely feedback and comments babies, you guys are the best! most written chapters for this smau will be shorter so I can get in more than just four or five! love you all 🍒🕊️☁️