Iâm going to address this for the second and hopefully last time, and Iâm only doing it because a follower of mine informed me about something extremely upsetting regarding this situation. This post includes Lepi's opinion on the situation, too.
To make it short: A person thatâs been blocked for ages, and that I never interacted with (except once to tell them to stop messaging me) has been using a third party (whom I never had any problems with) to save and send them my content this whole time.
As I have stated in the above post it has never been my intention to hurt anyone, and while I stand by that, I have to add that Lepi and I are the only people hurt by this. Iâve been trying to digest this for almost a month now and I donât know what else to do. Iâm trying really hard to be the bigger person here but there are things that have been said that hurt on such a personal level that I just canât let it go like that.
This is how the person describes what happened:
The first four sentences are how we remember the situation, too. Thatâs when all of this should have been over and done with, by the way (except for the part where they just straight up keep reading our written works because we canât block them on AO3).
âThey then went on about me harassing them and acting impossible.â - If you think my vent post above, the literal only instance I ever talked about this situation, fits the description they just provided, then I guess we can agree to disagree.
Who exactly is acting like a âdefiant toddlerâ in this situation, though? The people who simply blocked and moved on, or the person who insisted on getting access to content, no matter how, no matter by whom, no matter how disrespectful and greedy it would be?
It baffles me how you can twist reality like that just to make it fit your own version. They didn't need to do that at all, and I'm not sure what they gained by doing so. Considering they told the follower immediately after exchanging three messages with each other, it wouldn't surprise me if they told everyone they spoke to. However, knowing that this happened behind our backs without us ever having a chance to clear up the lies is upsetting, though, and thatâs why Iâm talking about it now.
This is how they continued:
Considering they just admitted to getting provided with the uncensored content, I canât believe they said they âgave it up because the matter is not important to themâ. Remind me; who couldnât let go of this situation? Because to me it was over the moment they were blocked. There was nothing to be clarified btw, if you get blocked you move on and thatâs. Literally. It.
They dodged most of the questions asked and stated over and over again that they werenât doing anything wrong, until finally:
âIâm not interested in the people, I just want to look at the picturesâ - Weâre not content machines. Weâre human beings and we put our hearts, our thoughts, and our emotions into every single piece, even the silly ones, and to dismiss that and compare us to a fucking pizza place (I mean, really? Wow.) is dehumanising and leaves me speechless. Add to that the fact that I literally watermark every piece of art I upload - how can you separate me from my artwork in that way? What part of "don't ever look at me or my content again" do you not understand, even after I literally told you? How can a person be so obsessed with accessing certain content that they not only completely ignore the creator's desire to be left alone, but also twist the truth and continue to shamelessly consume the content?
âIf I donât want someone to contact me, I block him/her. The person can still look at my pictures.â - Thatâs not what blocking means though, and I donât know whatâs so hard to understand about it. If a person has blocked you on every website with a block option, do you really think theyâre OK with what youâve done? This isnât about interacting with me, this is about respecting my desire to be left alone, including my content. And that goes for Lepiâs content as well, because with just one glance at their profile we saw artwork that looked heavily referenced from one of Lepiâs works - itâs like a slap in the face. It could always be a coincidence but considering the circumstances I think itâs a likely possibility. Also, considering how uncomfortable it was for Lepi to post our fics on AO3 because of the prospect that the person was still reading along and the suspicions were confirmed, you can imagine how we feel about uploading fics now. Or anything else, really.
Another thing that doesnât sit right with me is the way their friend just went âLook, thereâs new contentâ - How can you just say something like that without even considering for a second how we feel?
Iâve talked to the third party privately about it and theyâve admitted to it (after initially denying it) but it doesnât change the fact how mean this is. We used to gush about fandom stuff, I happily drew request art for them, and they even were mutuals with Lepi. They most likely also shared information from private chat logs, but they deny that too. But after what they did, it's hard to believe them. Do you have any idea what impact this experience has on us and our ability to trust others in the fandom?
Anyway, I'm not going to try to talk to the blocked person about any of this because theyâve obviously made up their mind and because the message I sent them over a year ago should have been more than enough.
I know there are many people who silently judge Lepi and me for our interests but itâs sad to learn that we have been disrespected for so long by a person we have specifically barred from seeing our content.
Judging by the way this person has handled rejection in the past, I can only assume they will take this the wrong way (again) and talk even more shit. There's nothing I can do about that though, and frankly I'm tired of it.
Lastly:Â
DONâT try to find these people. Donât try to bait them into replying to this, donât harass them, donât be creepy. If you do, Iâll block you immediately.
I donât condone harassment in any way, shape, or form. This post is to vent and to cope. I need to let it out somehow and Iâm trying to find out what works best. I just want my peace - even though I feel like Iâll never truly have that now that I know whatâs been going on behind my back.
I want this to be the last time I ever have to talk about this. Please respect our wish, once and for all.
Youâve been blocked. This means: Donât interact with us. Donât visit our blogs/profiles, and don't send others to gather content or "information" for you. Donât look at our artwork, donât read our fanfictions, our text posts, or our headcanons.