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My friend's have been back into fortnite and i still cant bring up why the chugg jugg song makes me cry. Ive asked them to stop singing it but either they think its a bit or they forget. I forgive them and I dont hold anything against them. I just wish I could move on. But not even really, thats settling. I want nothing more than to be good enoigh for you. But I dont think I ever could be. You deserve someone that would hold up the sky for you. I genuinely always knew you would amount to such great things. I feared being your anchor. That thought was always in my head. How could I ever be enough for someone so perfectly crafted? Beautiful. Smart. Funny. You've heard it tons of times before by other smitten artists, but until you've felt it, truly embraced an unconditional love, you will never know the amplitude of those words. The very flaws she so desperately distastes, are the very things I love about you. Your baby face in the morning. Your tiny chiclet teeth. Your tick that makes you pick your soft skin. I'll never understand how you could want to harm something so wonderful. I'm sorry zoë. I love you. Unconditionally never meant until you stop loving me.

Nothing poetic in this one. I just love you. I miss you. You feel like home.

You are the coarseness of sand that washes away the empty feelings in my ocean of misery

I think im really gunna die tonight. I cannot handle the physical and mental pain everyday. Nightmares filling my dreams everynight. I'm so tired and I cant change. I dont want to be like this.

I cant do this dude. Every single day i wake up from nightmares. I take my medicine and waste my day. I miss my ex more than anything. I constantly hurt people either by accident or cause im just kinda a dick. No one blames a cancer victim when they pass, but suicide always brings a negative connotation. I truly cant escape hurting people, and i hate it. I hate me. I want to change so bad, but i dont know if i can.