Wonderer

This was written before he decided to give up and start over his life. He reads it sometimes and wonder things like why he wrote it? Why is in his notebook? Question that never will be answer...maybe one day but not now.

I will go wherever you are.

Climb any mountain,

Leap cliffs,

Dodge fire...

I will run fearless,

I will find a way

or make my way,

Even if I have to drag myself to you.

I have faith in you.

I will break rules.

I can wait. Love is patient,

Even with heavy chains,

Even if the world is crumbling.

I will jump blindly.

I will give it all.

I will dare to fly...

But all this is just a Pretentious Game.

I am already too late.

I’ve build up too much space in our tiny world...by pressing up to many chances to say how I feel.

...

I will try to forget you by moving on.

I will open a new door.

I will learn new skills,

Do things i’ve never done before.

I am not a fool to hurt myself.

I know it take time to heal,

I can meet others.

But I can’t take my mind off of you,

Especially at night.

Maybe I just have to hit my head to the wall many times.

I have to crush my ego.

I have to remove all traces of you.

What I need now is complete silence,

Perhaps I need to turn on the music to lift me up.

I can recover, I know it.

Till that one day I meet this one person.

But life has a sick sense of humor.

I know I’ve hurt you more than the first one has hurt me.