Thin, thin, thin

I was struggling on and off to keep the weight loss going, I always went cold turkey into it. I should have known when I started to just “eat healthy”. I don’t count my calories but I take mental note of estimated amount of calories and I’m pretty sure I overshoot so I end up under eating. For the first time in a long time I hit under 175, which was the weight I was stuck at. Recently my sister said she was trying to lose weight, and I honestly didn’t want to be left behind, so she motivated me to start eating better. I also started exercising and moving more and I actually enjoy it because I don’t feel like a have to, more like I want to because it feels good and fun to see how much I can do. I’m okay with slow progress because the weeks pass by quickly for me. I’m just super excited to hit the 160’s because that when I saw I pretty decent change last time and it really motivated me. I feel like once I hit the 160’s I’ll find it easy to stick to getting to the 150’s which was the weight I maintained after a stopped fully dieting the first time. My lowest weight was like 147lbs and I was super happy with that. This time I was to reach below 140, and get really fit because I want to build my ass, hips, and tighten up my tummy which will take longer to do but I am up for the challenge. I just want to see what I am capable of doing for myself. I haven’t really eaten fast food or refined carbs all that much, I’m not craving it as much as before which makes me super happy because all I wanted to eat was ice cream and cookies and a bunch of stuff that was horrible for me. I’m a lot more conscious of what I put in my body. I also enjoy music a lottt more. It feels aesthetic now, whatever that means. I can’t wait o reach 160’s. Once i hit below 170 I’ll come back and update. I’ll take progress vids then too.

One day I want to rent my own fancy hotel with a hot tub, where cute night clothes with some wine, candles, music, and a joint. Spend the day enjoying the area around, getting some nice breakfast and coffee, walking around a city and buying all sorts of cute things and then heading back to the hotel room and getting ready for my bath. Then sleep so cozy in little satin pjs then in the morning take my time looking super cute and have a pastry and coffee by a water front and have some more shopping before heading home. What a dream.