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Having a spider phobia can suck so fucking much 😭 Theres a spider on the wall of the small staircase that I would need to walk down to leave this flat in London. There is no other way to leave the flat. I cannot walk past the spider. I cannot touch the spider with objects, therefore i cannot kill it with a vacuum or something. I can barely even fucking look at the spider. I ordered food and cannot get to it. I told the delivery guy to leave it in front of the house. I also don't have a button to automatically open the door for someone else. There is only one way to get to my food and the outside world and thats getting past the spider which is impossible. So I'm spending the entire day home alone until my friend comes back from work. Meanwhile my £20 order will be rotting outside the house. I'm genuinely feeling awful.

At least I was (am) drunk af..couldn't have went through this sober fr