My letter to Chanyeol
Dear Park Chanyeol
I find myself sometimes forgetting that you are only human because of how perfect you are. Always smiling, always doing every thing right, always showing your best side, it sometimes makes me feel like that smile will just always be there.
But, then, I saw a picture of you walking off stage while crying.
I saw a picture of you on stage (after Kris left) and you looked weighed down with grief.
I saw you in your V chat live video putting yourself down, in regards to how Exo did when performing at Mama.
I saw you on star 360 talking about how you cried in the car (something not even EXO knew about) and even remembering it made your eyes watery.
I saw a picture of you in pain and struggling, infront of the public
I saw a photo of your bloodshot, swollen eyes that you tried to hide behind your sunglasses.
I saw your post on Instagram, where you were frustrated from being accused of posting lovestagrams to Kim Taeyeon.
All of these photos, all of these moments, they are all real, you are real! And it makes me really want to protect that beautiful smile of yours.
I will never take your smile for granted, you may smile every day but there are still things that hurt you..
There are still times that you are sad.
You may feel pressure because of your nickname 'The happy virus'. You may feel that you always have to smile, even with your members and that pain's me.
There is nothing worst than bottling up so much feelings that you burst into tears all by yourself. I love you very much, yes, I am a stranger, someone that may not ever get to meet you but I feel that I speak for EXOL when I say you are not alone. Please never bottle up those feelings. If you don't want to cry in front of us, then please at least let your feelings be known to your friends, your members because even they were shaken up when you spoke of the time that you cried due to all the stress that you had taken on your own shoulders. They were in shock because they love you so much and don't want you to hurt alone.
You even admitted that you cry the most out of all the members..
I always saw you as someone who would just always be happy, but there are time's where it is so hard for you to smile.
I admire your strength Park Chanyeol.
I think I speak for all EXOL when I say , I will stand by you, always. Even if that smile were to fade, that would just give me more reason to want to be there for you, to want to give you strength.
Saranghae Park Chanyeol. I will always cherish your smile and be there cheering for you with all my strength. I will always stand up for you and believe in you. Saranghae. We are one!
Thank you Park Chanyeol for allowing us to be by your side during the good times and the bad. We (EXOL) will always be with you and so will your members. We all love you so much.
Always and forever we are ONE!
