Mi Vida Tere.

What hurt the most was when I asked if you watched my speech and you said the service. I’m like cool. Then the other day. I shouldn’t have to explain what bothers me. Idk. Maybe we are two different people now. You and Cody will never be like this is the woman I fuck with. What’s sad is each bf I’ve been with. I’ve fucked with so hard. Been that ride or die. But all I ever got was nah that ain’t me or I’m not ready. Before Cody it was him. Then cody came along and I knew I should’ve left him alone but he got me to open up. And being with him almost everyday. Shit. Never will a guy just be proud to be with me. Proud of me. I tell and reassure all the time. But I don’t get that. I will never get that. Maybe I just need to move. Cause the men in my life ain’t shit and I can’t count on them for anything.

Cody has been sober for almost two weeks. Messaged me last night asking to see me. And today again. Idk.

I don’t deserve this. To feel this way. I’m so hurt and embarrassed.

But sadly “we” had a miscarriage. Great. Thanks Cody for letting people ask me now. You got someone else pregnant when we were supposedly together. Smh.

I just want to know I’m valued and always appreciated. I want the love I give. I fucking hate this.