Xmknightbuster

It’s 2023. alot has happened since my last post in 2020. The pandemic came and went. I am working two jobs. I have a successful podcast . My music is better . I am about to get my driver’s license. & I learned that simplicity is at it’s finest. When I see how simple , shit really is .

I lost three of my best friends, Grandma, Jay Bless and Foot aka Petey aka Patricia in these past years,

my favorite rappers had died, Biz Mark , MF Doom & Shock G. DMX, Extacy from Whoodini , Tru Goy from De La, Nipsey Hussle, Pop Smoke  and so many others .

I got my Bachelor’s and Master Degrees.

I am going to start a buisness. A successful one

I am going to have successful life

The woman of my dream.

I’m going to stop being pussy about what teh fuck I want.

I’m going to get what I want .

Coming up on a year since we broke up. And things were cool. But recently, the calls been stopped. The texts were never returned.

I mean I let go, but I truly have seen that your distance did hurt a man alot. I know I can never tell her I miss her most of all. Even saying hello would be nice. But I got the message. And I understand clear.

Its not for everybody, only for somebody. I tend to feel this way because theres nobody. That feel you like I do and felt me like you did. Couple of grown kids , doing adult shit. Beyond the sexual aspects with our bodies quaking.inovking of the thoughts ,with ideas to awaken. The scent of your perfume and plus a weed blend. Drinks eats and laughter and rest on the weekends. Checking one another to see if were ok. Focusing on our grind m, since we're both stacking dimes. Motivated joyful bliss and elation. Felt our soul connect based through the conversation. But what it is lately , still lingers in my mind. Not together for now, but in the next lifetime. Our mental do connect and you heart I'll trust. That we keep it a buck. And even if we f@*# . the whole damn night and sleep all day. Not being selfish, i just had something to say. That i miss you more than any word can describe.i miss the good times for the by and by. Gorgeous brown eyes, infected by your smile. Simplistic in your style and your groove is amazing.entices by your curves, fingers playing while we laying....

For starters.. If i meet a woman online.

Im gonna ask her her name rank serial nimber and do background checks on them.

Many of them come off sideways and think that dudes like me are average and fucking dumb. Nah I am begining to see through them. Especially the charades.

Two weeks ago, two asked me to send money to buy shit. And they look like they have money.

Another damned near asked me for my bank account.

Seems to me to me i can sense the bullshit . very well. Maybe because I am wise in the mind and not as dumb as I look.

School of thought.

School of hardknocks

Learnt in the ways of the streets and the books.

One of the things that I am working on as a man. Is to be a bit more strong for myself , while being strong for others. I have a happiness that I hadn't had for a while. A happiness full of simplicity. But sometimes you hit a patch. But it's what you do when you hit a patch. .

I have ran away sometimes when the shit hit the fan. A part of my strength is to not do that.

Shit...

I been through quite a bit for the start of this year. Since it is my perosnal blog. I can pretty much say what I want.

One. After a struggle of getting back to it. I finished my final four classes and passed my studies. This inturn would lead me into finishing my Bachelor degree program in Networking/ information Technology. I am happy for that .

The raising part.

Since i will be a graduate. I will also start my masters program as well. But fuck.mmmmm i also need to gain my drivers license asap... It will come.

The walking away part.

I walked away from a six month relationship with a sweet but troubled woman. I have nothing bad to say about her. Other than the fact that we didn't see eye to eye regarding relationships from two different view points. Somethings I could handle and some I could not. I may have to eventually face it one day. She may have some points on what I need . but i am loner to a degree. Im cool being around people.but I am also cool with sitting by myself as well.

Oh so for the last few months. Alot of things has happened. I got my apartment in December. Some studio equipment and i finshed my bachelor's degree program.

Was dating. But there is a shake up. It migjt e

Be me or all on me. But I have to do what I have to do.