XIX Forever

I’m so pissed right now I’m violently shaking

My level of loneliness and depression is at a new peak. I’m so drained and all i want is for someone to love me and hold me at this point

Well not that I’ve gone back through my tumblr and looked at where shit started going wrong for me I’m even more sad. Really wish time travel was real.

So i haven’t been on here and years and as of late my mental health is completely gone to shit. I was told writing my thought or journaling would help so here I am.

Does anyone actually use tumblr still?

Soooooo fucking lonely and so over it

Haven’t been able to sleep because i can’t figure out how to help you

Nothing in the world will hurt my heart like seeing you the way you were tonight.

So over everything these days.

Got back in touch with a girl I’ve had an on and off again thing with for years and I am going to get to see her soon and I’ve honestly not been this excited to be around a girl in a really really really long time.

Tired of my fucking friends dying!

Still fucking sad.

Why the fuck do i still miss my ex. Shits supposed to heal with time and nothing has fuckin changed in all this time.