xiao (archived)

For those who want to draw things, cute and fashion related, while practicing drawing fundamentals, join my #cutetober challenge! 💖

" love-struck " ⚡️💖

" princess "

" flower girl "

" Rainbow lunar love power "

This was fun, admist feeling emotional. . . I like the effect of fuzziness and blur contrasted with hard definite edges. It speaks to me.

I think i have slowly let go of the idea of any style, similar to fashion. . . And just go with "enjoy myself" and "have fun". . . That usually leads me on a good path. Lead with a loving nature (self-loving included) and all will be well. . .

On side note, I am very unknowledgeable about music and music history. I was made aware of this today, and I feel a bit ashamed. I gotta let go of my ego and admit i just need to do some research. Learning is fun when the darn ego just moves out the way. . Surely. . .

Hope you enjoy this piece and Thank you for reading my tangents 🙏

Im beginning to crave the feeling of being free. . . Letting go. . . Not knowing. . . The result seems to carry not as much weight, as the feeling that created it. . . Interesting.

On a side note, i think this is my first time trying a side profile. . . I really need to practice this.

Not really sure where this one is going . . . Pondering, how i could combine the freeness of this with the cute/soft qualities i like to draw, and technicality. its a start 💗

I want to get more materials soon, on my wishlist:

- gouache

I don't want to be constrained by lines. . . So i made the lines dance

It made me feel happy yet sad,

To realize how much i am holding myself back,

But the moment was freeing.

...

Additional thought:

The thought of not trying and never knowing scares me more than messing up a drawing, so that encourages me to just give it a go.

----

Or just don't have real friends because I am fake?

If I don't reach out, no one initiates, or maybe I just pushed everyone away. . . sometimes a distant friend checks in and I am happy. But day to day its quite lonely here.