I have been thinking about doing this for a long time now, but haven’t gotten around to due to the lack of time. Sparing a long essay, thank you for the wonderful four years in this community. I’ve made friends I never thought I would, and made memories that I will take with me as I move on to bigger things. Thank you for plotting, threading and appreciating all the muses I’ve had so far.
The following are messages for my vips (IC/OOC or a mix of the two. You’ll know). The numbers correspond to the dates that we first met (MMYY). I apparently met more people in February 2015/ September 2014, so these dates are a lot more specific (MMDDYY).
date undisclosed (8008). You were the best friend of best friends. An ultimate. You always had my back through whatever. I’m sparing myself writing a super emo message about you because we all know I’ll see you next week anyway. Thank you for being the sunboob to my buttoria, (very briefly, the kihyun to my hyungwon), and the jackson to my mark/jaebum. Thank you for starting dxr and jype with me and making this experience enjoyable tenfold.
date undisclosed (starfire). my love. I’ve had the biggest pleasure in life to have known you. I don’t know where you are now, but I hope you’ve found your bliss. We went through a lot in a span of a few years. From best friends to lovers and back again, and again. I’ve never regretted the moments we shared, nor the lack of it. Even though I wouldn’t be able to share it with you, I wish your future is as bright as the stars. if you ever miss me, you can listen to my songs. I love you, nerd. 💖
0413. We’ve been friends for so long. You’re the longest friend I’ve had in this community. You’ve been there since I started and no matter how many accounts we both go through (and how many faces I make), you were one of my constants. I love how we were always so close—that no matter how long it took, all we needed to do was reconnect and it’d be like we were never apart at all. Our inside jokes were the highlight of my evenings, and I’ll always remember all the conversations we’ve ever had (about life, love and everything in between). You are a friend for life, baby boo. I only wish the best for you. I love you, sincerely. ♡
021015. ah, a confused branch of the family tree. you were my 누나, and then my mom, and then my sister. we started hitting it off right from the get go, and when you agreed to have ice cream with me on such a cold day, I knew right then that you were a keeper. you know all the secrets I can’t say out loud and have seen me at the happiest and worst points of my life. in many ways, you really were the older sister/mom in spite of myself assuming the big bro title. I promised you a lot of things, that you’ll always have me right beside you. I haven’t been good with those promises lately, and I regret that the most. You are important, and you have people who care for you, I’m pretty sure you know that. I love you always, baby sis. keep your chin up!
date unavailable (boatshoes). my boatshoe bro! first of all, our friendship has got to be the most romantic platonic relationship i’ve ever had. I know you’re my bro/soulmate for life, I think we established that when we put up matching icons/UNs/statuses for 1000++ times. you were my vitamin, a day without you felt like a bore. knowing all the words to say to make me laugh, you just get me. there were a lot of missed opportunities for us to talk, and I’m regretful about that. I truly enjoy every other day that we were laughing about internet idiots or typos or crazy shit like that though. thank you for being you! stay swole bro. i love you lots.
0915. this may not be the most accurate date, but I’ve known you since then. you were my cool dad, you still are! I was pretty intimidated at first, but I’m thankful you took the first step in sending me a message that day. I love how you welcomed my friendship so openly, despite the circumstances (twins are so cruel). you are genuinely kind, funny and smart—it shows in the way your friends adore you. never doubt how much you’ve touched peoples’ lives. I only wish you the best of the best, because you are the best! you are loved, and I’m sure you know that. don’t let anybody else bring you down! stay awesome dad ✌️
091314. my pikachu potato. I’m very thankful for you— for your friendship, for the love, for always being there for me despite me being a little shit a lot of the time. I was dumb and careless around your feelings and in retrospect, I wish I treated you better the past two years. I want you to know that you were never a bother to me, that I appreciated every single time you checked in, dropped a gift or said hi. you always get sick so be sure to take care of yourself. don’t skip your meals and don’t overexert yourself— we always tell each other this, so you better not forget. I’m glad JYP finally let us have that duet. I’ve been wanting to sing with you for a long time. Maybe it was a farewell gift? heh. Take care, cutato. stay humble and generous~
020515. you’ll always be the burger girl to this pizza boy. boy, where do i start with you, hm? We’ve had a lot of fun in such a short time. I remember how we used to spend hours playing BGO and CAH (i’m still sad i never won). thank you for sticking with me in spite of wherever you or I moved. take care of mini-mark for me, please don’t dress him in dresses (he gets shy aha). thank you for being the meme girl to this meme boy, sucks we never got to build an FNC empire orz. I’m wishing you all the best, take care mike. e u e
091714. If it isn’t my beautiful mum. You know this, I think you are the ultimate of ultimates, the bringer of salvage (and cinnamon rolls hehe). I’ve always been your biggest fan. The day we met had me really starstruck, I don’t know if you’ve ever noticed that (my ears were pretty red). Mum, you are wonderful, strong, smol but fiesty (and the only one I would go on a bakery run for in the wee hours of the morning). I’m very thankful for your loyalty, I’ll never forget how you stood up for me that time I got called a fuckboy :’) Stay golden, mum. You are amazing.
021115. One word: thankful. I’m thankful you haven’t forgotten about me in spite of my constant absences. I’m thankful you choose to keep me along with you wherever you went— that no matter how much time went on, I know I could still keep in touch with you one way or the other. I’m also thankful at how much you’ve been a good friend to your best twinnie. You’re an amazing person, keep doing you! Wishing you good luck and happiness.
0616. I’m pretty sure I knew you before this date, I just couldn’t trace how far back. I was always comfortable with you, and our conversations, no matter how trivial, were always a good start/end to my day. You really were my good luck charm. I find that I had better sleep, better songwriting, and a better mood whenever you were around and for that I’m thankful. I’ll never forget the day you kept me locked out though, maybe I’ll get you back someday.
0116. mi fiance, who I never got to marry wtheck! thank you for sharing your favorite movies and songs with me. I can’t believe i’ve never seen corpse bride before orz I wish we had more time to hang out/rabbit again, it was really fun. Don’t ever forget mcdonkadonks! You know where to find me if you need me. Stay sassy, smol and spunky.
0515. Our relationship just gradually became very ooc over the past two years. I love how easy it was to be able to talk about our personal lives to each other, it’s like having an extra ear to listen to my complaining and vice versa. Wish we had a lot more time to have our muses interact, who knows, maybe in the future? :D
1014. I don’t think I’ll ever celebrate halloween the same way ever since the pumpkin costumes of ’14. Our friendship was founded on such a silly thing, and every year it’ll be a reminder of our gastronomic adventures. We’re basically pig-out buddies. I saw you greet me the day of my birthday, thank you for remembering. You’re one of my most genuinely kind and sincere friends. I’m really happy to have known someone like you. Thank you for sharing your blanket with me in the waiting room that day, for coming with me to places despite the risk of being seen by paparazzi and for putting on crazy onesies (not many people would)! Stay amazing, lady pumpkin!
p.s. this is in no specific order at all, just in the order I remembered/ could trace back the dates. p.p.s. sorry if i sometimes don’t make sense, I pretty much rambled during the entire thing… :’ )
Sincerely,
qianniesong - 94xji - trickstuan - wonsvego - xefaro
