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I don’t want to give their username since they might have felt that comment shouldn’t be there anymore for some reason, but if you felt hurt because it took me a few days to reply… that wasn’t my intention. And thank you, truly (it still moves me even now).

Thank you for reading my works all this time and for reading the updates from the flower shop. I hope my stories continue to transport you to a nice and safe place. And as for the chapters from Heehoon’s point of view, don’t worry... they’ll appear at some point. I was just saying that I might wrap up the fic in the next chapter since I think it’ll take me MONTHS to write each extra chapter, and I don’t want to keep you all in suspense for that long.

Well, I never thought the new chapter would be published under these circumstances. I thought I had plenty of time ahead of me to keep posting my stories.

I’ve never hidden my truth, I’m an OT7, and I even wrote to you once that as long as the seven were with me, I would be too. I was sincere when I said that, and also raw. I’m not looking for understanding, but I really don’t know how I’ll move forward as a fan.

My love for the seven members of Enhypen is so great that I know I won’t be able to look at them the same way if that changes. I do truly love them, so seeing them incomplete is heartbreaking.

It's a domino effect: I can't go on like this, but I can't cut them out of my life either… they're part of who I am.

Just as I told you a few weeks ago when I went to see their movie, I’ve always been at every event of theirs that I could attend, and I’ve let you know that too. I’m a very active Engene, including with voting and streaming.

Right now, I don’t think any of us has the answer to what we should do. From my perspective, I’ll never believe that Heeseung wanted to leave the group overnight, leaving everything half-finished, including major projects and goals. I trusted him, and I’ll continue to do so.

I don’t want to be left with regrets that I didn’t do everything necessary to let him know how much we love and need him in Enhypen. I’ve also been participating in different kinds of protests, from trucks, flowers, and banners… to even dropping tags on Twitter (and you know I don’t even like Twitter). I got my family and friends to sign the petition (and they did, and I love them), and at this point I’m even in favor of the boycott. It wasn’t an easy decision—make sure you understand that—I hesitated a lot, I read about both sides of the debate, and it even led me to distance myself from people I’d started to form a closer bond with.

I know it might sound dramatic, but if I told you that Enhypen isn’t one of the greatest and most beautiful things in my life, I’d be lying.

And I’ve always been distrustful, but not with them. I let my guard down around them because they seem genuine, and I felt they’d always be there for me; they gave me a sense of security I’d never felt before.

Of course, I’m not doing any of this to harm them or force them to do something they don’t want to, but as I said above, I don’t think anyone has the right answer about what we should do.

What I do know is that all this time I’ve been worried about how little rest they get. I’ve always been vocal about that: Seeing them tired or looking forward to vacations that never came killed me inside. I’m not selfish, nor am I obsessed; I don’t feel the need to see them constantly recording content, releasing albums, or going on tour under the pretext that they’re still young or that their fans will abandon them if they don’t. They’re human beings, not machines. And I won’t let Belift or HYBE treat them this inhumanely, I just can’t stand it.

What’s going to happen to my stories? It was one of the first things I thought of when the news hit us like a bucket of cold water. What I can tell you today is that I’ll finish what I started.

I was afraid to open the document to edit and discover that I couldn’t do it anymore, that it would hurt too much… but that didn’t happen. My characters are just that… characters. They aren’t truly tied to the real people. And yet, as I reread… some things did resonate with everything: with them, with the situation, with me.

I don't know how, but some of you assumed I had many more stories to tell, and I never confirmed it, but these aren't even the first stories I wrote about them. There are more. Some are finished, others aren't. So I had to ask myself: what will I do with them? My answer today is that I want to publish them as they are, OT7, that's not going to change.

There’s still a long way to go, and as I’ve always told you, I want my fics to be a safe place for you, a story you can come back to and reread as many times as you want whenever you need it most.

I don’t know if you’ll want to keep reading, for obvious reasons, but I’ll stay here for now, and if you want to talk and cry with me via DMs, go ahead. You’re not alone.

ana ☽｡⋆

Heeseung is a fundamental part of the group, and he should be able to express himself as a soloist within the group as well. They are artists, not machines.

@BELIFTLAB RETRACT YOUR STATEMENT. LET HEESEUNG DO SOLO ACTIVITIES WHILE BEING AN ENHYPEN MEMBER

#BELIFTLABTREATENHYPENBETTER

#HEESEUNG

#ENHYPENIS7

#COMEBACKHEESEUNG

ENHYPEN HOME

#ENHYPEN_IS_7

#ENHYPEN_HOME

- started editing again, so you might see something soon~ (remember that i'm not just editing the epilogue, also ikmh!)

- recently saw that someone from another fandom uploaded an epilogue of about 80k words, and honestly, i don't want to do the same thing, so i'll probably split it AGAIN. God, this epilogue was divided into like five parts... it was monstrous.

- went to see WTL over the weekend... i don't know how you guys had it, but the engenes i was with were really excited, and i had a great time!

and finally, i bought a computer. will that change anything about my writing? well, i honestly don't think so, but it's an achievement, i guess(?