Enigmatic Thoughts

Cheating is a choice. May it be the first, second, third and so on and so forth. It is always one's choice.

In my opinion, I don't believe to those people who are saying, "I didn't mean to. Or di ko sinasadya. It just happened." when in the first place it won't even happen if you didn't let it.

We all have a choice, always.

And for some reason it even occured because of some 'excuses' like - they are not happy anymore, their partner is lacking in some aspects, some would say that they're suffocated, they're partner are way too serious in it, or some would get revenge (which is not right. If you cheat on your cheating boyfriend/girlfriend then you're not different than them).

No matter what the excuses are no one ever deserves to be cheated. If you're not happy anymore, let go. Don't be an assh*le/b*tch just so you could be happy.

It's more humane to break up than to hurt someone by cheating.

Us, human-beings, tend to be selfish. But you don't have no idea what a person might go through when you choose to cheat.

The trust will die just like that. And it would be hard for some to let people in without throwing away the thinking that someone might do it again to them.

GOLDEN RULE, people.

I am fully aware of what I'm doing, some might say that it's not right...some even thinks of it as a sin. But loving someone with the same sex/gender is like a courageous love.

We know how people think, but I would like to give myself a pat on my shoulder for being brave enough to tell my parents even though I'm uncertain on how they would accept this reality.

I am never this sure in my life for me to decide on this, I'm scared, frightened, afraid, terrified -- different words that could mean one thing. But I am taking a leap because she's worth it. It's not easy but I gotta do something to fight - the reason why my serotonin is in high level because I'm happy to have met her and be with her. The oxytocin that is being released everytime our hands join like it's made for the two of us. Two hearts in one and I hope they would see that.

The sincerity brought upon - this is my gift to myself. I don't know what will happen but I believe God would give me strength to face this battle of all sorts right now.

Your eyes, those intense orbs that pierces through my soul. 👁️👁️

Your lips, those kissable lips that leaves tingling feeling on my body. 💋

Your ears, those delicate pair that listens to whatever I have to say. 👂🏻

Your hands, those soft palm that touches mine when you lace your fingers with mine. 🖐️

Your arms, those strong arms that make me feel secure when you embrace me. 💪

Simple gestures that leaves a big impact on me...missing you like I'm starving to death. 🌹💀

Long distance relationship was never a problem before. It seems like freedom is known if you're not with your partner all the time. You don't have to dress extra pretty, you don't have to spend much money on your dates, you can simply go home and rest after a busy day at work.

However, meeting you changes my perspective in so many ways. We're 80 km apart and I wish there's a faster route next to you. You make LDR so hard for me to contain.

Suddenly, I hope that you're just a minute away from me. I don't mind getting crazy on what to wear, I don't mind having dates with you everyday, I don't mind meeting you after work because I believe in your line "Ikaw ang pahinga ko."

It's Christmas..and despite the chaos I hope and I still wish for something irrevocable happiness and peace. Dreaming that one day, everything will be alright. Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope everyone is having a blast.

Every year, I always reminisce to what it's like when my grandma is still alive. We used to put Christmas decors around the house, take time to build the Christmas tree and hang some lights on it. It was fun! Then prior to December 25, I just knew that we'd go to market for the family gathering that will be held at grandma's place. Wherein, I'll get to see my cousins and aunts, eat together, open some presents together.

But after grandma left, of course things changed but I'm not complaining. The nostalgia just sets the mood for me to wish something like that again.

Yet in my current life now, I'm contented to be with the family and enjoy the small celebration that we have. Although, it's true that it's more chaotic than before.

Yet there's someone out there..a few friends who came along the way to celebrate this special day with. My best friend, who is there since day 1! The additional celebration with two friends who lights up my day with their crazy, playful banters. And most especially, the girl who just recently became a part of me.

I miss your slightly cold hand that blends with my warm hand. The way it fits perfectly when intertwined.

I miss your tight hugs whenever you want to embrace me. Giving security and comfort as always.

I miss your sweet and playful kisses as you tickle my ears. Whispering heart warming ILOVEYOUs.

I wanted it so badly to be with you right now just as much as you do. And it makes me feel so excited to finally see you again, so I could hold your hand, hug you and kiss you. ❤️