POEMS & STORIES

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All my life I hated attention and the fuss it comes with it, so I learned to make myself small and occupy as little space as possible, trying to blend in the surroundings. My small physique made it easier. As time flew by, I've learned to be invisible, not letting anyone see me. The real me. You know, I didn't come searching because I really don't want attention, but you came, and you saw me. I didn’t' know how but you saw me, who I am, what I am. Being me, I don't know what to make of it. This is new, an uncharted territory I haven't ventured yet and didn't expect that I will, so, I didn't. A blessing had come, a prayer has been answered, but I ruined it myself. I lost sight of the world. You were the best. You shook my ground, no matter what effort I put on standing my ground, you worked you way around me-to me. You saw me even when I don't want to be seen. It unnerved me, scared me. You shone light without even knowing how dark it was. I didn't know how to respond to you, I've never met anyone like you. I hated all the attention, so I went and kept distancing myself, little by little until we were far from each other, from what should've been. It was this late that I realized, I didn't know I yearned for what I hate the most. Perhaps more than that, I yearn for you.

Miss na kita, Mahal rinig na rinig ko maging sa gitna ng katahimikan, malalakas na hampas ng alon, mga patak ng ulan, huni ng mga ibong naparaan, ang tunog ng tv sa kabilang kwarto, ngunit ang nangingibabaw, tunog ng pagkabasag patak ng mga luha at ng mga salitang nais sabihin ngunit 'di mabigkas bigkas. -patawarin mo sana

sometimes I try to remember what I was before the pain. the bruises. the traumas. before the mask was put no -then it never came off

spent years burying it all down hiding it seamlessly, expertly; I'm running out of soil. no room to bury my own body in now it's time to unearth every. single. feeling. compost to my plants I can't wait to say, finally -i can rest in pieces.

closed doors closed windows closed ears closed minds closed mouths - yet you hear the thundering pain

Tears trickling down As gopes and dreams darkening out Light twinking-dying out As night blooms, so does this feeling This ache, a twinge Thoughts deepening- darkening.

Its a smile a hug a tear oh dear, I've forgotten this game I pray you do tell, are the beats of our hearts the same? uncertainty-that's what we are

Pinagtagpo tayo ng ating tadhana Sa isang bagong landas na mahiwaga Laking galak nang ika'y sa'kin sumama Upang harapin lahat nang magkasama. Sa landas na itong tatahakin natin Mga tala'y nagniningning Nagbago ang lahat nang ika'y dumating Binigyan linaw ng pula aking buhay Tinuruan mo ako ng mga aral At ika'y natuto rin naman sa akin Kahit tayo'y sinusubok ng problema Sana't pagmamalaha'y di magmaliw Pinalago natin ang isa't-isa Kahit na langit ako at ika'y lupa Hindi papayag na ika'y mawala 'Pagkat sa akin, Ikaw ay mahalaga.

Sino nga ba ako? Sino nga ba ako sa'yo? Sino nga ba ako sa buhay mo? Sino nga ba ako para makuha ang atensyon mo? Sino? Oo kaibigan mo lang ako, Isang parte ng nakaraan mo, Ang parte na limot mo na, Isang parteng hindi mo na babalikan pa.

Hi How've you been? Do you still remember me? I was just wondering if I could see you, A glimpse of you shall be enough But I fear I'll only want more. Can we meet? I long to get lost in your yes. Missing you is a slow burn. I know I'm just your childhood sweetheart The one you might've buried under other memories, Long gon and forgotten. It's been years, I know. We haven't talked and all. These feelings shouldn't even matter anymore. Shouldn't even want to be in those arms of yours Or think that we can have it all. As opposing sides of this earth, We were the only attracting magnets Intended to never meet again.

She is a flower, Waiting to finally bloom, Wanting to wither, She's made up of depths, Even oceans can't fathom. A well with no end No one really knew her She who was invisible Hidden from their eyes.

Everything's the same. Over and over again, same routine, same people, same shit I deal with each day How peculiar it is that two letters, Yes only two, Have changed it all together.

You are a poem lost in me A word lost at the tip of my tongue Familiar yet I can't decipher, The one I kept misreading, A poem that I will always be rereading, will always be you.

The child in me calls to forgive you, The child who is now tired of feeling blue. Oppressed by my pride, for the things I knew But the cloud that looms will always come through I will forgive you when the time is due.

It was all a blur, Like a sweet, enchanting bliss; Two sparks ignited Branding it as love, Just like how fast it started was how quick it died. Infatuation, Oh how well you have disguised, you have tricked two souls. Thinking you were love Have trusted you, in return You've toyed their feelings. And as for my heart, Whatever it is you did Shan't be forgiven.

Hay im so sad for the chinese, i mean di nila kasalanan na nagka sakit yung isa sa kalahi nila na nakahawa ng virus na nakasakit at nakapatay sa maraming tao. Walang may gusto non, at oo sovrang nakakaasar na dito sila pumunta satin na oarang evacuation center tayo pero san sila tatakbo? They dont have any other choice but to flee from their country that was supposed to make them feel secured and safe. Im not sayign na ok lang na andito sila kasi syempre nakakatakot para sa part natin. Pero yung discrimination, yung judgements and treatments na para silang mga hayop na lalapa satin mali eh. Oo we have to distance ourself from anyone including our own race kasi di natin alam sino ang affected but the thought of people shrugging chinese off because of the epidemic, i cant help but be extremely sad abt this. I wonder how they feel, they cant speak nor express what they wanna say because they'll be shut off by our opinions abt how careless or why there here in our country. Why dont we keep our mind open?  That just like us they are very much afraid, then plus the mistreatments and judgments they are getting from the people all over the world, the brokenness they are feeling abt their country and countrymen, there own blood and family. Imagine that. Just that.