funny thing about anxiety is sometimes it kind of breaks your sense of danger. like i am known for repeatedly putting myself in situations that make my friends go "bro you couldve died. werent you scared?" and the answer is 👍 yjeah. i did it scared. i do everything scared. i didnt know that was the actual important kind of scary because i usually have to ignore my fears to function in society. it will happen again. watch out.

we had the anxiety disorder then too but we were so anxious we hid it

Social anxiety is a hell of a drug in general, but getting scared that the staff at your favourite restaurant or coffee shop will realise you're an autistic weirdo who eats exactly the same thing every day is especially wrong-headed. Food service people love autistic weirdos who eat exactly the same thing every day. Do you realise how valuable a reliable repeat customer whose order you cannot possibly fuck up is in that line of work?

what doesn’t kill you makes your nervous system more sensitive for the rest of your life

some days i’m just surviving my own head

i overthink therefore i suffer

Everything is so rushed. People in their twenties complaining about being old, sped up songs, sped up videos, too many things to do in such a short time. We have lost the art of lingering.