mind of a madman

What if there is a way to fix all this mess that we adapted in our everyday life?What if we can actually change how our Gov sees us? What if we don’t have to fight anymore? What if we could throw our worry’s out the door? What if we could trust anyone? What if the gov is the only one makings us fear our self’s while making a profit off of us? What if we don’t need money ? What if we don’t need protection? What if we can educate our self’s to what we find more informative? What if we didn’t have hurt others for what we need? What if we don’t have  to struggle anymore?.....

i have this very annoying habit of over thinking. i still cant seem to figure out what to do in those times besides wait and hope the feelings go away soon. i dont know what they want or why they even pop up in my mind could they be telling me something warning me or just trying to fuck with me for fun ......

whatever it is it needs to stop if i want to become the ultimate husband for my wife. if i want to be the best me i can be i have to stop dwelling on these things i call my demons  and learn to understand them because they are apart of me they are like my  (bad thoughts) or the feeling i get when i get away with something they make me feel good and i have learned from some of these personal demons a little bit more about myself  but i dont think im the only one out there that has realize that maybe that voice inside your head just as well maybe apart of your own soul talking to you because if you know about the holy trinity knot there are 3 things you should remember then mind body and soul. i believe that the soul really dose live within the heart however im gonna call it the (law of cosmic thinking)because idk but like your heart feels first then the feeling gos to the mind to kinda let you decide if you like that feeling or not then your mind tells the body how to react but its a very quick process because we we dont think how we should react we kinda know who we are so it just happens normally but some of us are completely different some of our minds or our hearts or even our bodys ......have been badly fucked with and we will never ever be the same again......but why is that a bad thing i love the way i am i excepted my demons as my own but they are stuck with me im not stuck with them i control me not them and yall should know that dont give in dont feel bad feel gifted because believe it or not demons help

to anyone out there who is tired of all this....i understand...

but im not gonna quit or end it or give in i still wanna fight for my right do die happy and i shouldnt have to help pay americas dept just because (thats life pal or because its the law )first of  all fuck you and second america dosent fucking know me at all shit i barley know me yet some how i have to work and have to pay money for everything no joke everything ......bull SHIT ....

im sorry we go through to much for that crap we lose family friends pets and its like we have no time for them like we cant afford it but thats bullshit we hurt one another just to get them to understand each point of view however war will always be war but war isnt bad sometimes we need it like that one song if you want peace prepare for war and i interpret that as if you ever want something that brings you peace prepare to fight for your life for it because it will probably be the last thing you fight for 

i dont know you anyone else ever thought it this is bullshit but yeah im 100% fucking saying this life is not fair (and dont say life is not fair life is fair we just make it more difficult )and yes im actually happy for the stuff we have today like wifi indoor plumbing tv ect but i feel like this is just shit they throw at us so we can have a fake side goal so we can feel like we are doing something with are life but after awhile of having those things they arent as special like why the hell are we doing this to our selfs i get it yall have mouths to feed but think there can be a way to fix this mess there haste to be this isnt the end for us 

my schools taught me everything about how this world is corrupted ever sence i was young i understood about how the world works.....our education is a lie what they teach us in school really is to break you down and make you weak and it aims to misguide everyone from the start of our lives school never told me there would be more to life that our emotions actually can get the better of me nor tell me that there will be friends that are there for me no instead it showed me what happens when you dont lissen and that they personally made a place for people like me who cant behave in the normal world and its litarally like prison im not joking that fact that they really do prepare us for prison if we cant behave we got to a to a diffrent building just to face a wall all day also get pat search and all but what pisses me of the most is that we over look the young and thats what makes us so crooked the dropouts the people that tried and failed the ones that got booted because they couldnt behave but the truth is the ones who pass they only pass the sheep test .....and the ones that failed well we have to worry about the wolf inside.....

im gonna start something new and try to help me pass the time a better way