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Of course I do, I’m just. I’m scared. I already lost my best friend—again—and I don’t…the only way for people to stop leaving me is if I just stay away. It’s better that way.

Theo, i’m always going to be here ok? Never leaving your side.

Why? I fucked it up with nearly everyone.

Are you? Because…I feel like I never see you anymore.

i feel like you dont need me anymore.

Of course I do, I’m just. I’m scared. I already lost my best friend—again—and I don’t…the only way for people to stop leaving me is if I just stay away. It’s better that way.

I’m trying, I’m just…scared it won’t be enough.

Well you try, and then you try some more. And maybe try again.

I know, I...I know.

If you say so..

So. How are you?

I know. Can you…do you think you could come over? I would understand if you didn’t.

I’ll come over.  

Thank you.

I just…wanted to be wrong.

Cheating is always wrong. 

I know. Can you...do you think you could come over? I would understand if you didn't.

I fucked up bad though, didn’t I?

I think you know the answer to that already. 

I just...wanted to be wrong.

I’m trying, but. I can tell he hates me.

I’m sure he doesn’t.

Of course he does. They both do.

Of course I do.

Then try to make it better. Apologize to the people you need to apologize to. Make sure it never happens again. And then it will be okay.

I'm trying, but. I can tell he hates me.

Oh, um. Nothing.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

So sleeping with your best friend is okay?

Do you regret it?

Of course I do.