tales of a twenty/something

In the last three months I

Had a baby

Lost my job

Found a new job

Still have the best husband in the whole world

Fancy that

Is to work for someone who values me and treats me like a human being. I’m tired of tense, anxious workplace. I’m tired of walking on eggshells. Frankly it’s exhausting.

It won’t matter in a few hours, days or weeks

The stress isn’t worth it

Don’t let other people get to you

Value yourself and your ideas

You have so much to offer don’t get bogged down in one place

Relax your face and your shoulders

Just popping on here to say. I’m in the market for a new job. I’m going to Maine this weekend to visit a friend and then the Jewish holidays. I’m excited to not be in the office. A toxic environment that makes me nauseous.

Focusing on the positive like

- it’s fall

- hot coffee

- going to Europe

- having meal prepped

It was a GOOD weekend in Baltimore and it’s making it HARD to be at work. Tons of traffic made my commute rough BUT my spin class was awesome and challenging and I meal prepped and I am doing a hip hop class tonight! I’m supposed to get dinner with a friend after! I hope she doesn’t cancel...

I want to write this here because I had a great weekend and I’m sad to be at work and I want to be able to reflect on it and make me smile.

Friday - we drove to south jersey and had dinner with my aunt. We stayed for hours and the food was pretty good. We talked and talked and I think my voice was hoarse. It was nice and we didn’t leave until almost 11 pm. Long story but we didn’t talk for a long time and now we talk again.

Saturday - I went to a great spin class and then we ran some errands - bank, grocery store- and then husband hung photos of us from the wedding. A gallery wall! Then we watched some Netflix and relaxed and then went to a nice dinner at harvest and to see a community theater show. They did Mamma Mia and it was low key but they really cared and it was cute. Made me miss theater

Sunday - slept in which was amazing and then met up with friends later in the afternoon. went to a winery and hung out and seriously again talked for hours. Had ice cream before dinner woops and then had a late night - split a cheesesteak at one of my favorite places. It was such a good day and I didn’t want it to end.

Monday - went to another great spin class and then hung out, ran errands - groceries- before the rain/during the rain here - and then went to what was supposed to be a bbq but was meh food. Oh well! It was nice to be invited somewhere and not at home alone. I passed out/went to slept around 8:53 haha only because I remember.

It was a really good weekly and not too busy but not too slow? I’m just so happy. I’m tired now and don’t really have the energy to deal with BS at work. My friend said something last night that has stuck with me. She said she was happy to go to work for the first time in years because she hated her last job and started a new one last week. I want to like my job too. I’m trying so hard to change things within myself but what more can I do? It’s exhausting.

I didn’t get coffee today and I meal prepped! Here’s to eating healthy, not bored eating or eating junk.

I’m in a frustrated mood and feel like meh. Like a kid when they are having a tantrum? But I don’t want to scream I’m just like MEH! Had a car issue and although it’s solved I’m pretty sure the dealer lied to me. I want justice and I’m not gonna get it and I’m annoyed. I’m trying to get over it but I’m stewing.

Off tomorrow for a ride to the finger lakes and a wedding. Very excited for a road trip and to get out of town just for a few days. Yay. I haven’t been up there since 2013 and it’s been making me think a lot about back then and now.

I am trying to kick my obsession. Day 1 without stopping for my little iced vanilla coffee. I want it lol. But I know i real all those things that say it’s a waste and blah blah. But when you have an hour commute and the stop at Starbucks makes you happy and it’s yummy... sigh.

I’m in a weird mood where I really just don’t feel like being at work. I’ll try to Shake it but I just feel meh? I will listen to music and try to perk up. I did have a really freaky dream about my Mom so it’s hard to move past that. Spin class helped but it’s still bugging me

So close to Friday! I slept like a rock and had crazy dreams as per usual. I had two cruise dreams! What’s up with that? Ever dream and you wake up and it’s SO REAL?? Then you have to center yourself when you have to get up. I took my time and it was nice because there was barely any traffic getting to work. It’s hard for me in the summer because everyone takes vacation except me haha. But I reminded myself that we are not beach people and the last thing I want to do is drive around or walk around somewhere in the heat!

We have a lot of weekend plans coming up. Next two weeks will be busy with one weekend including a trip to the finger lakes. I’m excited to go back because it’s been a while since I was there. Then the end of August we have no plans yay! Maybe we could go to the beach even for an overnight.

Anywho today is Thursday and we are celebrating the interns for their last day tomorrow. Tomorrow I told them to pick where they want to eat. Me and another coworker are taking them out to lunch.

Turned 29 yesterday. It feels weird! Back at work and cried this morning for a variety of reasons but I’m focusing on the positive. Gifted myself some tickets to Spain! YOLO!