I swear to god, 2019 has been the worst year of my life.

In March, i got up and moved across the US to get out of an abusive relationship because i was so emotionally drained and had no confidence left whatsoever.

I moved to Texas and things were finally getting better.

THEN, out of the blue, i got into a small fender bender that resulted in me totaling my car in the end of April.

A few weeks after figuring that mess out, i got a call from my mom telling me that she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in May.

I literally contemplated suicide a million times.

In July, i moved myself up to Ohio to be there for my mom, and to be around because i wasn't sure how much time i had left with her.

Because of all of my financial burdens and not being prepared.. my (used to be immaculate) credit score went from 759 to 536 in a matter of like 2 months.

I've racked up just about $8,000.00 worth of debt.

And now, here i am.

Building myself back up, yet again. But this time, not only for me.. but for my family. Because FAMILY is the goddamn most important thing that you have in this life.

Ive been fucking struggling.. but i'm back on my work grind bullshit, working 40+ hours a week to be able to push myself back up to where i want to be financially.

I'm going to therapy, to have someone to talk to, on a healthy level.

I'm going to the gym, to give myself some sort of push and motivation to be better to myself.

ya girl is broke as a joke and jobless and dealing with my mom being extremely sick.

i'm caring for her right now and don't know how long i'll be out of work.