also known as: papa ~ the archivist ~ lorekeeper ~ winter or wintersoul
english, queer, autistic, elder millennial, linguistics grad
[[i love words // writing systems my beloved // stuff about or in non-english languages is tagged '<language name> language']]
itās always ok to dm me about something iāve posted about or talked about in tags, but messages that just say "hey" will not be answered
asks are usually open, do knock yourself out. i'm always happy to share factual information related to inside no 9, the league of gentlemen, reece shearsmithās acting work, pembersmith lore etc
[[answered asks // asks game]]
tags are sometimes for categorisation, sometimes for yapping and trauma dumping. i have other blogs where i'm a lot stricter with my tagging, so i cut myself some slack in this, my diary
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fics'n'fanworks masterpost of my fics, fanvids, podfics and webweaves. also tagged stuff i made along with gifs and creative stuff that doesn't fall under the pembersmith fanworks umbrella
TAGS OF NOTE
percy irl ~ personal things // percy werk ~ stuff about my job // percy.wav ~ audio things // percy.mov ~ filmmaking things // photo diary ~ pictures i have taken
i like to go digital dumpster diving or talk about just archivist things. as part of that you will find examples of transcribed audio
other things i enjoy include illustration and (stop motion) animation ~ skulls and bones ~ fyeahgayvampires ~ spaces and places ~ greek mythology ~ folk and fairy tales ~ electronic music ~ podcasts ~ improv comedy ~ sci fi ~ general goth shit āš»
ANGSTY THINGS
the bats on the ceiling are spelling out the word turmoil // modern life is rubbish // ai bullshit
JOYFUL THINGS
cats make everything better // this is so stupid i love it // hope as a radical act
dividers by @uzmacchiato š¤ profile pic by @not-xpr-art
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My last cat was owned by my friend's Trekkie uncle who passed very suddenly in a car crash. The family just couldn't take him and asked me to possibly foster him until they could. I almost immediately adopted him.
I would set my computer to play a video for him when I left for work. He got mad if it wasn't star trek. He learned to hit the spacebar to pause and start it.
I am and have always been a Trekkie. One time I was having a shit day bc I was in the middle of MCAS starting to kick my butt and I was just crying on my couch. He hopped onto the table and started star trek for me
Then he just stared at me like "did that work?"
And this was his staring face so yes of course it did
But I'm forever amused that I shared needing the same comfort show, with a cat
It took him some trial and error, but he figured out pawing the keyboard in the area of the spacebar made it stop and start. And also at my mouse, which he had stolen bc I was paying too much attention to the video, in that picture
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the most essential part of a fandom are those people who immediately tell you to write it, draw it, make it when you share your ideas, you have no idea how many fanworks are born just because someone encouraged it
Had a UC meeting yesterday and it was fine everything is ok and honestly i feel like a fucking weight has been lifted. I donāt want to jinx myself but genuinely think Iām coming out of this latest depressed patch. Which is good cos iāve spent the last few months getting fucking battered by thoughts about no longer wanting to be alive and itās so refreshing to wake up and feel something other than dread šš»
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also sorry iām so tired of people acting like they can have nothing in common with someone a few years older or younger than them. have you never had coworkers who arenāt your exact age. have you never taken an art class with someone thirty years older than you. have you never had a friend. like did covid fry everyoneās brains this badly
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relational trauma has to be healed relationally. the best way to practice having relatively "safe" interactions with ppl is joining a hobby group/club/whatever. I've recently joined like ten Fancy Leather Bag groups on fb out of deep curiosity and interest and the communities ppl will build around literally everything I swear to god. I've seen multiple ladies in these purse groups being like "thank you everyone in this hobby for getting me through my chemotherapy" like ... sometimes we dismiss the middle aged purse lady demographic but you know what they have got is a functional community where they support each other that just happens to be centered around purses. having now read many posts from these groups for several weeks I can see that the object being collected IS important, and is certainly the superifival draw into the space as well as something that provides an immediate shared interest, the actual benefit of localish hobby/collecting spaces is largely community and social support.
those of us who are Very Online Only could stand to learn from this sort of thing I think. it doesn't have to be purses it could be anything. but like. (gestures at the purse ladies who are getting each other through chemotherapy) Shared Interest Facebook Group And/Or Subreddit has it for you. i think.
this is actually my first step of learning emotional regulation. yes yes, restful sleep and physiologically appropriate exercise and getting outside and eating nutritious meals. these are all good. but also MEET. YOUR. SOCIAL. NEEDS. you need the relational foundation to cushion you while you work on these skills! i know it's really scary because we all have relational trauma but that doesn't mean we don't have a need for social connection and support!!!
