im tired of trying just to end up feeling shamed wherever i go. yea, i know it's my fault. that's the fucking problem.

my therapist gave up on me. she doesn't know what to do. im starting psychiatry again, but i know it won't help. i just don't know what to do anymore.

I've been homeless for awhile. I haven't eaten in days. I sustain myself on energy drinks.

ive spent so many hours trying to get it out in the shower or with olive oil.

i hate it. im going crazy and i feel like crying.

anyway that's what im up to. it's killing my drive to do anything else because i spend all my energy on saving my hair.

ugh. (may post a picture of it tomorrow, but it's difficult since it's on the back of my head.)

im should be looking for a job, but im too ashamed of my appearance to go out anywhere.